November 4th, 2017
The bones in me are rattling and shaking with fear as each lightning strike hits the ground. I am sitting in the bathroom that belongs to my new friends that has let me live with them. When they let me live with them, I felt like I truly belong; like someone might actually love me for who I am. But here I am, sitting alone in this pitch black bathroom, tears rolling down my face. I am alone.
I hear footsteps.
The bathroom door opens and I see him. John Laurens. He stands there, staring in pity.
He cares.
"Are you okay?"
Before I know it, I'm lying in his lap. I look up at his beautiful brown eyes and it feels like it's a dream come true.
I love him.
Then, he's holding me. We are in his bed and he's fucking holding me. He smells like the ocean, but like cinnamon at the same time. He is not the overlapping water that I struggle to escape from. The water imitating arms wrapping around my scarred body, trapping me under, leaving me to die. No, he is the calm still sea. I'm standing on a peer, looking out at the glistening lake as the sun sets over it, the ripples turning an astounding shade of orange and red. His hand is in mine. He is the ocean, honey, and cinnamon.
He cares.
As I am speaking of my past life, as I am pouring years of hurt and guilt out into him, he listens. He stares at my eyes and my lips.
I want to kiss him.
But I can't. He has Peggy.
I'm an idiot.
Unlovable.
But he still cares.
I love him.
But his heart is already devoted to someone else.
I will never be truly found.
A. Ham
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