Emerald and Hazel

Chapter 21 - Rainy Days

James' P.O.V

Merlin. I really hope this goes well. If it doesn't it could mean any sort of relationship with Lily.

'I--, it's just--,' I stumbled over my words and mentally kicked myself for being so stupid 'I feel like you're playing a game with me.' I say very quickly and immediately regret every word I just said because I don't think she's playing a game with me I just don't know how she feels so it's as if I'm guessing everything like a game. And I tried to put it into words yeh right way and it didn't come out right.

'You what?' She says almost in disbelief but her voice almost cracks.

'No-- I didn't-- I mean,'

You're doing it again
Shut up!

'You think I'm playing a game with what?!' She says defensively 'Your emotions? My emotions? What? Tell me.' I've never really seen Lily so upset that she's defended herself like that - offensively.

I stare at her for a moment as I can see anger light up in her eyes and for a moment I question whether the glistening in her eyes is fire or tears.

She stands waiting for answer but I'm completely speechless at how wrong this conversation went so fast. She walks past me eventually, her emerald eyes still glistening, and as her fiery hair flies past me I smell the honeysuckle scent coming from it.

Ugh. I can't even go to class now, I wouldn't be able to concentrate. So I just go back to the common room, lock my door and collapse on my bed. Could this day get any worse?

Lily's P.O.V

I couldn't go to class, I wouldn't be able to concentrate so I just went back to the common room and locked the door and started reading the book James got me from Diagon Alley.

It's OK so far.

You've only read the title of the first chapter
Leave me alone
Oh what's wrong? Did James think you were playing him? Did he think you were leading him on?

I snap the book shut slam it on the bed side table.

'No! I'm not!' I say loudly. Although no one is around me I still feel the need to say it out loud.

Why am I being like this? Why do I care so much? Why does James think I'm playing a game with him?

Well let's think, you've flirted with him--
Have I?
We'll get to that in a second, you laugh at his dumb jokes
They're not dumb
You listen to him now without rolling your eyes
That's because he's more mature now
You not only tolerate or enjoy but want his attention. And there was one other thing, what was it? Oh that you kissed.
OK so how do I flirt with him?
All of the above

So he thinks I'm playing a game with him because I haven't asked him out? That's it! He wouldn't ask if he didn't care. He wouldn't ask if it was bothering him! So he does still like me!

Oh my Merlin. This is good then, because James and me both like each other. At the same time! But James still think I'm playing a game with him. Well if I just tell him I'm not he'll believe me right?

Well he's probably in class. I'll just wait until he comes into the common room so it's private.

Wait, but quidditch practice. I groan until I see the whether outside. The rain is so fast and heavy I can't even see two feet away from window. I know the quidditch pitch will be saturated and they won't be able to see the quaffle coming at their heads, let alone the snitch. My mood has perked up. But the anticipation of when I'll next see James and what will happen looks as bleak as my vision beyond the veil the rain beating the on the castle.

James' P.O.V

It's been ages and I haven't heard Lily come into the dormitory yet. How long can one person spend in a damn library?!

Library, books, the one I bought for Lily. Sirius keeps asking me why I actually got it for her, he's says 'It was a only a book she wanted, her pile of unread books is bigger than my pile of sleak-eazy!'

But Lily loves books, and I'd known that for ages, so being able to get her something that would make her smile really made me smile.

Forget it. I'm going to look for her.

Lily's P.O.V

Forget it. I'm going to look her him. I can't just keep waiting and sulking in my room. I grab the door handle and swing the door open and to my surprise all I see is James' messy, black hair walking away from me.

'James!' I say immediately. He jumps and spins around in shock.

'How long have you been in your room?' He says

'Ages, I was waiting for you to come back.'

'I was in my room waiting for you to come back!' He says.

And I just start laughing for no reason, the situation is barely laughable but it's more like one of those laugh-of-relief kind of laughs.

James just smiles, but not like a big smile like when you're happy, a small smile that you get when you're content.

'I wanted to explain,' I start 'I thought about what you said, and I'm not trying to play a game with you. I've just been so confused as to what's going on lately, because with the patronus and Lisa and flirting and all the mixed signals so far this year I'm trying to sort out what's happening right now. Because I'm really confused about how you feel.' I say as a little bit of weight lifts off my chest with every word.

'I know you aren't playing a game with me, I know you wouldn't do that. I just didn't know how to say what I wanted to say or how to say it and I didn't know how you would respond if I said a certain thing, because Lily I never want to lose you. And with that kind of pressure I just messed it all up. Which is strange because I usually do well under pressure, you know? Being quidditch captain and all.' He smirks briefly and I can't help but smile. There's no point trying to suppress it.

'I don't want to lose you either, Potter.' I say playfully.

'Back to second names are we, Evans?' He says and I laugh before launching into his arms for a hug. And I don't intend on letting go anytime soon.

Potter, with his messy, black hair and hazel eyes. I love him. The rain outside is still beating against the windows, but in the comfort of James' arms I don't care.

End of Part Two

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