Falling Slowly

I won't Smile

When I arrive to school a group of boys look at me and stop me in the hallway. "Hey Luna!" I turn around "Yes." One of the boys sneers "Last time you bumped into my buddy here and didn't apologize." I look at the guy and smile "I'm sorry." I bow "It won't happen again." The guys are in shock "Did she just smile?" Another speaks "Yeah it wasn't a fake one either it was sincere." "She looks pretty when she smiles!" Ethan is walking in the hallway when one of his friends grabs his attention "Hey Ethan did you hear the news about how Luna apologized and bowed to some guys and smiled." Ethan looks at his friend "What?" His friend nods his head "Yeah all the guys are crushing on her because they say her smile is enough to turn you on." I walk towards class B when Jake runs up to me "Thanks to you I'm almost late." I look at Jake and smile "Sorry." Jake looks at me "What no "Shut up Jake and punch or well you're not late are you?" I smile "Nope!" Jake grabs my shoulders "Did you finally lose your virginity?" I laugh "No!" Jake stares at me "Then why are you smiling and so happy?" I smile "I watched the Naruto Shippuden episode where Danzo dies." Jake stares at me blankly "Yeah you're normal Luna." I take my seat and pay attention in class keeping my eyes on the teacher. Mr.Robinson reads a question "When did the industrial revolution start?" I raise my hand "Pick me teach!" Mr.Robinson looks at me confused "Luna?" I smile "The 18th century." Ethan looks at me *She's smiling but it's not the same smile when she talks about her siblings." I look to see Ethan staring at me and smiles. He writes a note it reads 'All that smiling must hurt your face' I frown "Ruining the mood." Ethan laughs and Mr.Robinson walks over "Passing notes?" Mr.Robinson looks at the note "This is in arabic." I look at Ethan "I didn't know you could write in arabic." Mr.Robinson looks at us "Translate this." I smirk "It says our teacher is the best." Mr.Robinson stares at us then walks back to the front of the classroom "Anyway the industrial revolution advanced the world--" I smile at Ethan and he smiles *HE/SHE has such a nice smile* When it's break time I get up and is bombarded in the hallway "Luna!" "Luna." I look up and make a nervous face "Yeah?" A senior of mine pushes through the crowd "Luna can we talk for a sec." I smile "Sure." The senior puts his hand over his face that turns red "Uh yeah follow me." I follow the senior where the hallway grows quiet. "Alright guys come out!" I look around 3 other guys come out and I smirk *so it's going to be like this.* The senior grabs my hand "You see when you smile you're cute so can you smile for these guys." I look at the guys calmly "There's no reason to smile." He looks at me "What?" I frown "Honestly this makes me want to smile less." He pushes me against the wall and I laugh "What's so funny?" I look up "I guess it's because I can't catch a break. Trouble follows me wherever I go." Ethan comes around the corner "What are 4 guys doing with a girl in an abandoned hallway?" The senior smiles at Ethan "Nothing." Ethan walks over and grabs his hand "Let go of Luna...The way you have her up against the wall pisses me off." I look at Ethan and then smile and twist the guys hand and glance towards Ethan's direction "I can handle myself." Ethan looks at the guy in pain on the floor "Luna really doesn't like to be bothered makes you wonder why she didn't smile in the first place." I walk with Ethan back to class "How did you know I was in trouble?" Ethan raises a brow "So you were in trouble." I become embarrassed "No it's just...Ah shut up." Ethan leans close to my face "You know if you smile more you'll get confessions...So don't show others your true smile the beautiful one you have around your family members." I turn red "Why?" Ethan ruffles his hair "Well I get jealous when you talk to other guys...I only want you to be mine." I look at Ethan "Well I'm saying this as a friend but I get annoyed when all the girls drool over you. I feel they only like what's on the outside and have no idea how wonderful you are on the inside." I point my finger on Ethan's chest and he moves my hand onto it "Do you feel my heartbeat?" I look at Ethan "Yeah it's beating fast....Anyway let's get back to class." Ethan smiles "Yeah.." Ethan ruffles his hair and I walk into the classroom. Jake approaches me "Luna do you want to hang out..." I look at Jake "No." Jake frowns "Why?" I look at Jake and then Mckenzie "You need to talk to her." Jake stands up "I don't want to. She hurt you and I won't forgive her for that." I stare at Jake "Then tell her that. None the less you need to talk to her and I won't hang out with you until you do." I walk over to Mckenzie "Jake will talk to you." Jenny stares at mckenzie and mckenzie scoffs "Like i asked for your help." I smile "I understand." Mckenzie smiles and mouths 'thank you' I sit down and Mr.Robinson speaks to the class "The field trip is in two days so i'll need your permission slips by tomorrow." I sigh "Mom...Dad." Ethan looks at me and the bell rings and I get up. I call my mom when her assistant picks up the phone "Luna your mom is in the middle of surgery right now I leave her a message." I sigh "Well tell her I need her home so she can sign my permission slip for school." The assistant speaks "Drop it off at the hospital and i'll have her sign it quickly." I frown "You know how I feel about hospitals.." The assistant sounds annoyed "Well do you not want to go on the trip?" I frown "Alright i'll be there in 30 minutes." The assistant smiles "Perfect." I walk towards Jake "I need a ride." Jake scoffs "Why should I.." I look at Jake "I need to see my mom." Jake becomes serious "Ok I'll meet you with my car in front of the school." Jake leaves and my friends look at me "Luna where are you going?" I look at them "To the hospital to see my mom." Michelle frowns "Luna I had no idea.." I look at them confused "My mom is surgeon not someone admitted to the hospital." My friends sigh in relief and Jasmine smiles "Oh thank god." I get a text from Jake "I have to go see you guys tomorrow." I walk outside and get in Jake's car. Jake looks at me "Time to go see mama James." I look down with sorrow "Yeah..some mom."