Falling Slowly

Why are you saying the L word?

 Ethan closes the door behind him and I sit on the carpet in my room. I can no longer hold the tears back, and begin to cry. "Do I play the victim?....Do I put other people before our relationship?...This is my fault isn't it. That you feel this way Ethan." I pick up my phone and call Jake. He picks up on the first ring "Hey Lulu what up?" I debate on whether or not I should tell him about the situation. "I just wanted to hear your voice.." Jake is silent then speaks "Lulu what's wrong?" I force a laugh "Nothing's wrong. Everything's fine." Jake hangs up, and I'm shocked "Did I make him mad? Oh no.. I'm the worst." After 30 minutes of me contemplating on whether or not to call Jake back or text him I go downstairs. "Ethan." I see Ethan packing his things "So you're not going to stay?" He looks at me "I think it's best if I leave." I walk towards him "Why are we fighting?" He looks at me "There's too many reasons to list...Listen Luna." I look at him "There you go again calling me Luna..." He looks at me "Liliana." I look up and he continues speaking "I'm going to head home. I'll see you tomorrow at school." I sigh "Like we're going to even talk..." Ethan puts his backpack on I hear the rain pouring outside. "It's raining." Ethan looks at me "I'll be fine..." Ethan walks towards the door his driver already outside "I l-....Goodbye Ethan." Ethan forces a smile "Bye Luna." The door closes and Ethan sighs as he gets into the limo "Why didn't I say Liliana..." The driver looks at Ethan "Is everything alright master Ethan? Weren't your intentions to stay at Ms.James house?" Ethan looks up "I wasn't feeling good...Can we just go to my house?" The driver nods his head "As you wish Master Ethan." Ethan reaches his home. "It's empty...If only Liliana were here." There's a knock on the door "Liliana?"- Luna makes her way to the stairs when there's several knocks on her door "Ethan?!"

Luna's POV

I open the door to see Jake drenched in water from the rain "Jake?" He looks at me frantically "Lulu are you alright?!" I feel hot tears come out my eyes and hug him "No!" I take in the smell of cologne and rain water as I cry into is chest. He closes the door and hugs me "Don't worry Lulu i'm here." I look up and see the compassion in his blue eyes. His blonde hair wet. "Let's dry you off..." I get Jake some of his clothes he leaves at my house "Here I cleaned these last week when you left them." He changes infront of me which is no big deal i've seen him naked plenty of times. I notice my clothes are drenched from clinging onto him. I grab my shorts and change into those and put on a crop top. I grab a towel and head over to a fully dressed Jake "Let me dry your hair." I smile as I dry his hair "It still smells like blueberries." He smiles "And your hair smells like coconuts and almonds." I laugh "Yeah...Ethan liked that about my hair.." Jake turns around "What happened?" I look at him "We were making out, and when you called I picked up and Ethan was still kissing me....So that moan was me and not vampire diaries playing in the background. And so I got mad at him and then he got mad at me and some stuff was brought up and we kept arguing and so I said he should leave and at first he refused but then said we needed a break and I'm not sure what that means and so he left and I refuse to text or call him." Jake looks at me and is in awe "You really do love him." I look at Jake "What?" He runs his hand through his blonde hair "I mean i've never seen you cry this much over anyone besides Augustus." I look at Jake "Well these tears are going to waste because I don't even know if we're dating anymore." I look at Jake "Aren't you going to put a shirt on?" Jake smirks at me "Are my abs taking your mind off of Ethan?" I laugh and so does Jake "I've always loved your laugh Liliana." I'm shocked Jake never calls me Liliana "Jake..." I put my hand on his face "I'm sorry for this." Jake looks at me confused "Lulu what are-" I kiss him before he finishes his sentence. It's a long kiss and i pull him closer to me. When we're done his cheeks are red and he's looking at me starstruck "Lulu?" I turn away "I'm sorry! I just I don't know what I was thinking!" Jake laughs "Lulu calm down it's alright. I should've pulled away." I look at Jake "Am I bad kisser?" Jake becomes nervous I've never seen him nervous before "Well I didn't exactly hate the kiss,so to answer your question you're not a bad kisser..." I smile and stand up "What time is it?" Jake gets up still shirtless "Like 10 something." I turn around "Are you tired?" Jake smiles "No." I step closer to him "Then let's have some fun." Jake looks at me "Liliana." He said that name again "Yes?"