I had a good summer altogether, except I was still sad over the Lilly thing. I was depressed. I thought that once school was out, Id be happy again, Id be away from anyone that reminded me of Lilly and Danielle and that would help, just it didnt. I still cried myself to sleep and I wasnt sure whether it was over Lilly or James. The fact that he said hed be there and he wasnt or the girl had been using and bullying me before I even noticed it.
Talking to the new class of eighth graders helped a lot. Along with Bella and Kim, I started talking to Christina, Kacey, and Lynn. By the time school started I was mainly talking to Kacey and Bella. I found that they were great friends, but I was still hesitant to befriend them. Mainly because of what had happened just the year before. I trusted them, anyway. They had been at the school a lot longer and even if we had never really talked before we talked on Twitter, we knew each other. Not personally, but we knew each other's reputations and none of ours seemed so alarming that there was a reason to not become friends. Bella was the quiet type that stayed in the back of the crowd being sure to not draw attention to herself too much. Christina was also that way, she hung out with less people than Bella, although I still liked calling her my friend. I was more hesitant to become friends with Kacey, because, sure she was nice to me on Twitter, but I never really paid attention to her during school, like I had with Bella and Christina. I watched how Bella acted before seventh grade, because I had seen her at family reunions, although supposedly we arent considered family. I watched Christina because she was Beth's cousin and I wanted to get to know as much as I could about Beth as I could without actually talking to anybody.
Within the first week I had started hanging out with Bella. I was still questioning whether or not I should talk to these girls during school, but Bella had already approached me and I wasnt going to be rude and tell her to leave me alone. The more I hung out with Bella, the more I started hanging out with the others. OK, at the start of the year, I mainly hung out with Kacey and Bella, but by the end of the school year I would grow closer to Lynn and Kim. Not really Kim, I would juts say she's an acquaintance, but I got to know her better.
I didnt really hang out with the sixth graders much either. Lilly's younger sister, Eleanor was in that class and everytime she spoke, I would just think about Lilly and how much it hurt. I looked around and it seemed as though everybody saw, but nobody cared to help. Although, as horrifying as it was to think back to the day that I just broke down, Eleanor wasnt the only person to keep me away from the sixth graders. They had groups and picked on each other, bullied each other. As much as I wanted to help, it was minor bullying and what I saw as the victim was able to brush it off. I dont see how they could stand to be in the same class. Along with each group picking on each other, it seemed as though each group fought to be the popular group. Not really with each other, but by how they acted. That altogether just made me want to hate the class so much more.
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