As Lilly walked towards me, I got confused. She just called Anna a bitch and now she wants me to forgive her for something she didnt even do to me. "Get away from me." I told her before she was even five steps away. She stopped and looked at me. She was acting as if nothing was wrong. As if she had never commited one tiny sin. She tried to act sweet and innocent. Sweet and innocent were two things that she was not. She was not sweet, she was sour hiding behind some fake sugar. She was not innocent, she was horrid and evil and nasty. The type of person that I did not want to be around. Ever.
I knew that if I were to hang out with someone lie that, I would become someone like that. Someone I didnti want to be. Someone fake and ridiculous. Someone that everyone hated, but had to pretend they liked so that they wouldnt start unwanted drama.
"C'mon, Alice. What did I do? Tell me, and I'll go away." Exactly what I wanted to know. What had I done? What had I done to make her hate me? To make me feel horrible and worthless, what had I done?
"What did you do?" I repeated her. "What did you do? What havent you done?!?" I was so close to tears, but I was not going to let her win. If I cried now I might as well give up. Give up this toture people call life. This stupid worthless thing called life.
"No, honestly, what did I do?" That 'innocent' face looked upset. Yeah, because sh would be upset over losing a friendship with someone she hated. She walked closer to me. Closer. Closer. Until she was two steps away. No, I was not going to let her win. I am too nice, if I get close to her, I will forgive her. I do not want to forgive her, so I take a step backwards.
By now, Anna had walked off to some seventh graders to give Lilly and I some space to talk. Thats the last thing I wish she had done. Leave me alone with Lilly. The less people, the softer I get. So here I am, about to break, with the one person I despised the most. "No, just go, please." I am barely able to get out.
"Not until you tell me what I did." I look away. I have been standing here too long. Way way too long to stay strong. I look away.
"Just leave me alone. Now." A tear falls. Thas it, I refuse to let myself break. "You really want to know what you did?!?" I almost shout. I cant believe I let her get to me. She nods fear in her face. Whether its fear from losing my friendship or that I will lash out on her. "First of all, you literally run away from me and then the next day you come to me begging for forgiveness. Then, today, when Anna told you to leave us alone from now on, you call her a bitch?!?!?!?!" I am pissed off. She messes with my mind. She plays games that I honestly cant stand.
"It was all just a joke. The running away. The me calling Anna a bitch... it was all just a joke. Im sorry." She thought this was all just a joke? What? How can you do that? "Joke" around. Leaving your 'friends' in tears. Thats not a joke.
"It was a joke?!" Im even more pissed at her reasoning. She starts to nod, but I cut her off with more shouting. "You dont joke like that. Thats bullying. Youre a fucking bully. Leave me alone from now on." I was able to take my sadness and put it into anger and then finally have the guts to leave someone who made me feel unwanted unloved and like complete shit.
"Wait!" She says after I take two steps. I shouldve kept walking and ignored her, because then I wouldnt have said I made a mistake. Turning around was a mistake. I couldve stopped a lot of sadness.
"What?!?!" I shout as I turn around.
"Im sorry. I really am. I am really and truly sorry. I know I shouldnt have said that to Anna and I shouldnt have run away. Do you forgive me?" Now that all my anger was out, I was a softie, again.
It was hard to say because I wasnt as mad anymore. "No." I stuck to holding a grudge.
"C'mon. Why not? I'll let you slap me." I let out a laugh. Not because I found her polite and angelic, again, but because she thought it would work.
I wasnt going to forgive her but I said, "Youre face?"
"Softly." Was she really going to let me slap her?
"Hard." I say trying to make a bargain.
"How about on my hand?" Lilly is trying to make me forgive her and its working.
"Fine." I didnt want to get in trouble for hitting someone, so I just hit her softly and she acted as if it hurt.
"Forgive me?" I did, I didnt want to myself, but I did. I did forgive her.
"Ehh." I reply.
"How about I give you this?" She holds up a Hunger Games dogtag hanging from a chain on her neck.
"Yea." I was forgiving her, but I might as well take something from it.
"OK, here you go." She hands it to me and I put it on just as the teacher that was watching us blows the whistle. Lilly runs over to Anna and Danielle to tell them.
Anna comes to me and says, "Lilly says you guys made up and are now best of friends again, is it true?"
"It is that we made up, but we arent best friends, again. We never will be."
(A/N:
Hiiiii. I really like this chapter, idk why. Maybe its because it s longer than usual, but oh well! This and the last chapter were supposed to go together, but I knew that it would be too long.
I hope you guys liked it, please vote if you did, it would mean a lot to me. Thank you! I love you! Byee. Xx.~ Tara)
