Stuff like that caused drama easily, but then again drama started too easily in our class. We go from a simple conversation about how much we "hated" our teachers to screaming our heads off at each other. This usually happened in the gym locker room.
~~~Lunch time
So at lunch time, we either had to sit at the table that had never been explored by our butts, or sit at our old table. Most of the time, it was the first, mainly because we were usually last in the lunch line. Sometimes Anna left me by taking the last seat at the old table and I had to sit at their table. Those days I would sit and eat in silence and just give an evil glare in Anna's direction with her just saying "Sorry, I just wanted to sit next to Abigail today" or something similar to that. She looked as though she just expected my forgiveness... Just like Lilly.
I started feeling shitty, because I was a bitch to her and she was my new Lilly. One thing was different this time. I was rude to her along with her being mean to me. It was a never ending cycle. The only reason I kept trying to make the friendship work was being I thought she was a good friend. I thought she was worth suffering the shit we put each other through. I thought our friendship was worth it.
Apparently she did too. She said that the summer of 2014 she was going to L.A. and she wanted to take me. I was ecstatic. My favorite youtubers lived there... her favorite youtubers lived there. Slowly my excitedness turned to jealousy and anger.SHE WOULDNT EVEN FUCKING KNOWN ABOUT THESE AMAZING PEOPLE IF IT WERENT FOR ME. AND NOW SHES ACTING AS THOUGH SHES THE BIGGEST FAN??? What?
"Thatd be cool if I could go." I would reply, because it would be awesome. If she met them, Id meet them. If she got an autograph, Id get an autograph. If they signed her boob, Id just stand there laughing too hard to do anything, just stand there clapping my hands like a retarded seal.
As much as I wanted to go, I probably couldnt, my grandma wouldnt let me and I get home sick too easily. Also, I had already started talking shit on her to my grandma and then my grandma would question why i wanted to go if I didnt like her. And Id probably be more rude than normal.
Finally, I decided that as much as I loved her as a friend and as much as I loved our friendship, we were killing each other from the inside out. I wasnt having it. So, I stopped talking to her as much and I avoided people in general to try to make it seem as though I wasnt just treating her like that. I was a horrible actor. id get "I just dont see what I did. Why are you ignoring me? Why are you acting this way?" daily and it killed me. I didnt want to say, Id seem selfish and shit like that.
"Like what?" Id say in reply as though there was nothing wrong. This just drove us apart even more. She went to JEssica and I went to the eighth graders. Hoping that she would leave us alone, and she did.
(A/N:
I told you guys that Id do another update and here it is :3
I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter and some people were wondering about what happened with "Anna" and I... well here is the beginning of it.
I love you guyssssss ssssooooo much!
Mwuah! BAi Xx. Tara)
