Spoken Word Poetry

Realities of LOve

Sometimes I ask; How can there be pain in a place where there is so much joy? Bakit kung kelan masaya ka ay susulpot yung nakakaiyak, nakakalubog at nakakamatay na kalungkutan?

A loving relationship is the most awesome experience in the world, maybe this is why it also holds the potential for so much sadness. 

there are lots of nights that I cried, hope and pray that it would not be the end of our love story, that someday you come back to me and live with me forever. I love you at your worst and you have me at my best. I think that is enough to show how much I adore you, how much I love you and how much you mean to me, but you still choose to break my heart and to leave me alone. The pain caused by you murdered me. I tried to forget you, to let you go but I cant. I was in pain every  moment I did. I tried to move on and forget everything about us hindio ko magawa ang bitawan ka. Titiisin kong hawakan ang sakit dahil sa pagmamahal ko sayo hanggang kaya pa.

My heart still hurt and causes me pain. I wish you could just love me again. Maybe it was the only thing to put the smile on my face again. I thought we would be together from now till forever but something took that away and now I have to start my own days. Buong akala ko ay mawawala ang sakit sa tuwing maaalala ko ang mga araw na masaya pa tayo ngunit yun pala ay mananatiling akala na lamang. Why do we have to be apart? Totoo ang pag-ibig ko sa iyo, kulang paba? Pero mas pinili mo pa rin ang iwan ako. They tore us apart at sobranng nasaktan ako. Hindi ko alam kung nasaktan ka rin ba. Dahil kong mahal mo ako, dahil kung mahalaga sayo ang pinag-samahan natin, hindi ka lalayo, hindi ka mang-iiwan at mas lalong hindo mo ako sasaktan. 

Masakit ngaba para sayo ang iwan ako o madali lang dahil wala naman talaga akong halaga sa buhay mo? Ni minsan ba ninais mo akong makamtan ulit? Ni minsan ba ninais mong maging sayo ako ulit? Ni minsan ba nagsisi kang iniwan mo ako? Ni minsan ba lumuha ka? Kasi ako OO and until now I still care.

I wish I could turn back all the years and make you stop and make you listen and make you understand that you were meant to only be with me. e used to laugh, we used to love and we used to close like nothing can ever set us apart. Gosh! I wish I could have you once again. I have to laugh, I have to love, All I want is your sweet hugs .

Hindi ko na alam if I would still believe in forever because Im stuck carrying the pain, hopeless and loveless. Why it was happening to me? Why do I need to suffer? Especially why do I need to be alone?

I want to run, I want to hide, I want to cry. Why cant I tell him goodbye? He hurts me so deep. My heart was broken and my soul has shaken, but Why?

I think no stupid love song can describe how I feel. Sometimes the words other people say are never good enough or real. No one will ever know how I am feeling this moment.