Jay's Anatomy

I'm In Love With...

Jay's POV Continued...

"Answer me Jay..." Dave said as I ran my fingers through my hair.

"I... I can't... I don't know." I said as he paced back in forth. I could tell that he was filled with rage.

"David I'm sorry... I..."

"I what Jay?! All this time we spent together, you were just leading me on huh? After everything I told you? All the time we spent together? I told you my deepest darkest secrets. I opened all the way up to you, and you up and do this?" He asked as I tried to reach for his arm.

When he jerked it back, tears started to fall again.

"Dave please I'm sorry!" I semi-yelled as he walked over to his car.

"Jay I put my everything into you! Im tired of you going back and forth! I'm not doing that anymore! If you don't want me, then we've just been waisting our time." He yelled as he got in.

"David please! I don't wanna lose you! I care about you! Aside from all of the feelings we have for each other, you're my best friend!" I yelled out as he started cranking it up and he put the car in reverse. I was banging on the window and all.

"Jay back up..." He said calmly as he rolled down the window and I shook my head no.

"No David please don't do this! You're acting like I don't care about you at all!" I yelled out as he yelled through the window.

"I'm not supposed to race to be the first choice! You should've said me with no doubt. I now know that your heart wants nothing do with me. I'm out." He said as he revved his engine and he sped off.

"Noooooo! David...." I said as I started crying and I placed both of my hands on top of my head.

"Come here Jay... come on hun..." I heard Moniece's voice as I felt her wrap her arms around me. She walked me towards my car, where Keith was already in the front seat.

"You okay Jay?" Keith asked me as I covered my face with my palms.

"No I'm not okay! I just lost my best friend, and the person I think that holds my heart. He's never gonna talk to me again." I said laying my head down in Mo's lap.

Why did I do this to myself? I'm being asked to choose between Chris and Dave. I care about both of them, but the decision has to be made clear.

45 Minutes Later at 12:46 a.m

"Jay why don't you just stay here and chill with us?" Moniece asked as I put my scrubs on.

"I can't sleep...I need to get my mind off of things... I'm on-call anyways." I said grabbing my car keys. Keith and Moniece brought their stuff over here, so they could stay with me for a while.

I did some real hard thinking after my altercation with Dave. Yes, I love Chris, and I know I'm falling for Dave. I know that Chris officially left Zoey, but they are still expecting a child. Their baby will always have her somewhere in the mix of me and Chris. His child will always be put first. It would be different if there was no pregnancy at all.

It's just so much on my mind... Dave was right though. I gotta stop going back and forth. I need to get my life together, but first, I need to be in a stress free environment. In reality, work doesn't stress me out as much as you may think. So, that's where I'll be going.

"Well if you going I'm going. You're the life of the party. If you ain't here, then Mo is just gonna talk my ear off and bore me." Keith said grabbing his stuff.