"Why cant he just tell me?" I sighed, pacing around my bedroom. It was nearly 3 am and i needed some sleep, but i couldnt.
My mind wont let me sleep. I'll just get night terrors and scream then ill wake everyone up and im just a burden!
"Gina, honey, are you okay?" My mothers soft voice asked, lightly knocking on my door.
"I'm not okay, they wear me out!" I yelled. Hey, that sounds like a good song lyric, i should write that down.
"Just get some sleep okay," she added before i heard her footsteps travel down the hallway.
I had a thought,
No
Yes
Maybe
Do it i know you want to
No!
Do it!
Fine!
After my argument with myself i walked over to my bedside table.
I hesitantly pulled the bottom drawer open and reached to the back.
I shakily pulled a bag of white powder out of the drawer. I promised Frank last year i would never lay my hands on the drug, but Frank doesnt care about me, he would be honest with me of he did.
"Here we go," i mumbled to myself, walking into my bathroom.
"Itll take your mind of everything, youll be happy," i continued mumbling to myself, pouring the powder in a line on the rim of the bathtub.
What am i doing? What would Frank say?
Frank doesnt care about you!
Yes he does!
He does not, how could he care about a worthless idiot like you?
"You know what, your right!" I yelled at myself, bringing my nose to the drug...
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you are a boy - frerard
FanfictionGerard Way is a trans boy, formerly known as Gina Way. Gerard moves to a new school, people find out, he gets bullied. His best friend Frank is keeping his feelings for Gerard hidden, Gerard is doing the same for his feelings for Frank.
