Falling for Finn

Chapter 30

Chapter 30:

The same night, I woke up at three in the morning. I was wide awake and in pain. Physically and emotionally.

I got up, and I ran to the desk that was in the office. In the bottom drawer, the third one to the left, was a box. It was full of the things saved from the fire. Inside I found, a few papers, a locket, a family picture (my dad, my mom, Carter and I) and my journal. I took the entire box into the bedroom. I set them on the bed. I take the journal out, and write "you shouldn't have believed me when I said I was fine" with a pencil that I grabbed from the desk. I keep that page open, and place it where I will be resting.

Then, going into the bathroom, I went to the medicine cabinet. I saw Finns pain killers left over from the car crash. I dumped them out so they were all over the counter. There were about 16 left. He never really took many.

Grabbing the cup from the corner of the counter, I fill it half way up with water. Then I grab one of the pills. I plopped it on my tongue, and I gulp it down with water. Now it's time for the second one. I repeat the process until there's one left. I take a deep breathe. And I place it on my tongue. The water flushing it down to my stomach. It's time.

I lay back on my bed. Flat on my back. My hands on my stomach. I let out a chuckle. Today, July 28th, is my last day. The day I die. I close my eyes. The world feels like it's spinning. Goodbye. World.

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Finns P.O.V.

I left because I thought Ashley needed to cool off. Sierra grabbed me, and started kissing. She wouldn't let go. I wanted to explain that to Ashley but I knew she wouldn't understand.

I came home at 5 in the morning. I wanted to see how Ashley was doing and explain how sorry I am. That's all I really wanted.

When I walked into the bedroom, where I knew she would be. She was lying on the bed, an open journal next to her, along with a box. She was pale and she looks porcelain.

I pick up the journal, she's probably just fell asleep while going through some old things. But I am alarmed when I read what's on the page.

"You shouldn't have believed me when I said I was fine." I look up, my eyes widening and watering up. I look at Ashley, her hands are rested on her stomach.

"ASHLEY!!" I yell, I'm shaking her. She's not waking up. I scream it again. She's cold with no pulse.

I am shaking and tearing up. I grab my phone from my jean pockets, my hands are shaking and I can barely click the numbers "911".

"Yes, hello?! My girlfriend tried to kill herself! I don't know how long it's been but I just got home! The Dakota apartments, 72nd street, 17th floor, apartment 1B!!!" I scream into the phone.

"Sir, calm down. We will be there soon." The lady at the other end tells me. But I can't calm down. My girlfriend might be dead.

I hang up the phone. And I can already hear sirens from outside and I am praying this isn't the end.

Soon enough, the paramedics barge through the door. And they come into the room, where I am sitting on the bed, crying. They lift Ashley's corpse off the bed, and I just watch.

"Follow us" one of the free handed paramedics said to me. I do as told and follow him. Out to the street, and into the ambulance. Next to Ashley.

I stood beside her, while two paramedics stood on the opposite side. I couldn't keep my eyes off of her pale, beautiful face. Her eyes are closed, and her lips are cracked.

Getting to the hospital, they gave me instructions. I was to wait in the waiting room until they told me I could see her and find out the news. They informed me that it would be a few hours, but I accepted that. Because I am willing to wait any stretch of time for my love.

I sat down in the waiting room, on a chair just to the left of a window. On the right hand side, was a small table. There, was a lamp, a plant and hand sanitizer. On the floor, payed some magazines. But I just sat there and looked at the ceiling.

My thoughts were spinning, I didn't

want to know if she was dead or not. I want to go back. I want things to be the way they were back when we first fell in love. Simple.

An hour went by, people came and went through the waiting room. All I did, was glance at the time and stare off into the distance. But finally, a nurse came out.

"Finn, would you like to see Ashley?" The short, young lady asked me. She was looking up from her clipboard, which was held with her left hand.

"Yeah!" I said, I jumped up from my seat.

She walked a few feet in front of me, leading me through about five different hallways and three different staircases until we got to a room. Where she opened the door slowly.

"Ashley, Finn is here to see you." The nurse informed Ashley. "I'll leave you too alone."

She closed to door behind her.

"Finn?" Ashley asked me, her head perked up and I went over to the hospital bed.

"Ashley" I stared at her into the eyes while kneeling next to her.

"I'm sorry" she apologized, she looked down at her hands, on her wrist was two hospital bands.

"Don't be. I did a wrong thing, and I hope you can forgive me."

"I love you, Finn"

I smiled and looked down at the ground. She's forgiving me quickly. Maybe it's the meds.

"I love you too" my smile was huge.

"When will I be out of here?" Ashley asks me, she wants to be out. I know it.

"Overnight probably"

"They aren't going to put me through therapy, are they?" She forces a laugh.

"No, no. Not if you don't want to" I chuckle along. I put my hand on hers, and she grasps it with her fingers. She's shaking.

Then the door creaks open. It's the doctor. He has dark skin, and a bold figure. He looks like a basketball player in a doctor costume.

"Hey, we are going to have to do a small checkup, and if we can call you in the morning, take her home? That would be great" the doctor tells me, he's smiling with this teeth.

"Yeah" I get myself up, and walk to the door. "I love you, Ashley"

"I love you, Finn" she responds. I open the door, closing it behind me. And there I go, walking into the dark hallways. And thanking God, that my girlfriend, the one I am in love with, is safe.