You can't spell space without ace (vkook)

All we seem to do is talk about... sex

a/n: I am Jeongguk. Jeongguk is me. We are one.

Like seriously.

I take joy in writing personal shit just so I can spit it all out and this is simply a fic about how I discovered I am an asexual panromantic. I also love space and puns and tumblr so that's where the title comes from. Also my cover is such a mess I'm sorry, but would you believe the pic of the moon that we can barely see was me who took it lol wow I love taking pics...

I'd like to say that the asexual spectrum is wide and everything varies from person to person. So do not take everything I describe here as how all aces feel. I'll get into that later on but this is just a heads up.

Enjoy.

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There are things in life that we are born with. They are deep enlaced in our minds and bodies and sometimes we don't even take notice of how it has always been there.

Most times it takes a while to learn about it, to realize what it means, and to finally accept it.

Those things changes from person to person, some don't need to realize it, they just know it since they can remember it. Some people also don't need to accept it. They are already born embracing that piece of themselves, that part of their life.

Everything in life is very relative, one thing depending on another and nothing ever happens on the same way for everyone. People are different and unique and learn about things in their own pace.

It's perfectly fine and understandable to experience things differently from the majority of people.

It's also completely normal to take more than time than you wish you would to even point out what exactly you are experiencing differently from those around you.

Jeongguk took a while to figure himself out. Always thought he fitted the so called "norm", always thought he was no different from his family and close friends.

Even though he thought like that, something inside his mind seemed to always be whispering something else, but he never really took notice of it.

He should've have known it since he was little, since the day his friends started to come up to him and confess him their crushes on others, since they started to tell him how they felt about those crushes of them.

It's not like Jeongguk didn't experience crushes himself, because he did, but he always felt a bit off about them. Something inside him was always telling him that the way he was experiencing this, was somewhat different than the way his friends were experiencing it.

When he was still in Elementary School it wasn't that noticeable, even if he indeed questioned how this classmate of his was constantly having a different crush each week, Jeongguk just thought the boy had more love to give than him.

Jeongguk would call what he felt a "crush" because that was what his friends used to describe it. The boy would question why some of his friends were holding hands or giggling about how one of them pecked the lips of some girl.

He thought he was just not ready for that, he even thought none of them were ready for that either because they were so young.

Why his friends were randomly mentioning girls and laughing about it was something he never got, he was fine with playing with his toys back at home. He was more than fine with just staying inside watching cartoons instead of being out there chuckling over girls – or whatever his friends were doing.

Once he got into High School that he really started to feel a bit off, even if he told himself he was just like his friends, something was not exactly right.