Lost Memories (Taehyung x Jennie) [Book 2]

◆ Twenty - Five ◆

Aftee eating with everyone, we went back to my room and settled there.

I decided to put my attention to a book, it was a novel. I want to distract myself from the reality and pain.

But of course, these three ladies will disturb me.

"Yah, tell us why Baekhyung was outside earlier."
Jisoo lied on my bed beside me whe I'm just sitting and keaning on the head board with the pillow on my back.

"There's nothing to tell."
I andwered creasing my forehead.

"What? Is that a joke? So he's out earlier there just because of nothing?"
Jisoo frustratedky asked me while looking straight to my eyes.

"No, okay. He gave me a ride, he saw me at the far away park and he suggested me to ride his big bike."
I answered closing my eyes trying to avoid their reaction.

........
Seconds have passed and they were jist looking at me.

"I was about to react but...nevermind."
Jisoo got off from my bed and went to get her phone from her bed...extra bed for them. She's going to sleep beside me, anyway.

"Look at these...."
Her eyes widened as she saa notifications on her phone.

"97 missed calls?"
Chaeyoung was shocked as well.

"From? And why?"
Lisa asked and looked.

"I told him not to call and he uses Jimin to call me? Great."
Jisoo opened the lock screen and saw some messages together with the missed calls.

"114 messages from Jin and Jimin. They alternately texted me."
Jisoo informed with a poker face.

"I shall read it...where are you...where's Jennie...girls, where are you...is Jennie fine...what's happening there...we need a response, please..."
Stuffs like these should be deleted.
Jisoo looked at me with worry yet she gave out a smile.

"Can...I sleep now? I really fel sleepy."
I know they won't believe me but at least I triedn to lie.

"Ne, eonnie. I'll turn the lights off, then."
Lisa stood up and seitched the lights off.

I lied on my bed...

"I'll be sleeping beside thrm, Jennie-a. I know you need your time."
The last line, she whispered it beside me before leaving my bed.

Aftet that, they all slept together on that extra bed while me...

I stared at the balcony, I gazed through the sky. Moonlight shinning bright on the carpet of my room. We let the balcony open, we are weirds...it is so cold yet we let it open.

I felt the cold breeze of wind each second.

I stared at it for minutes...
And after moments, I took out my phone.
I decided to turn it on.

As I did...
I saw several messages.

From Jin...From Jimin...from Jungkook and as I continued from scrolling up...

There's a mesage from Taehyung.

"So, you're looking for me?

Wow...you're concern?"

While reading those messages...
I want to delete it...
I want to block him...
But while thinking of blocking him...

My tears fell down.

I have read one message that made me cry even more.

"My Jendeukie.

Please forgive me.
It wasn't my intention to cheat on you.
I was drunk that time, she kissed me and my body can't refuse. It was like, I was hypnotized.

You know that I love you.
I can't cheat, even though I almost done it with her again, you're still the one I love.

Please, let me see you.
I coukd die of devastation andndepression for not seeing you.

Jendeukie.
Please, just let me apologize for what I have done again."

It was his message...
Because of that, I can't block his number.
I just turned my phone off and wiped the tears off from my face.

It is so painful.

"It is so painful.

I can't breath properly.

I feel like, I'm going to spit my heart out.

My chest pounds harder but slower.

My head axhes but my eyes can't stop tearing up."

I held my chest and crouched.
My elbows are touching my knees while lying on my bed.

I know, I have my friends here but...
I feel devastated...I honestly feel devastated.

"Taehyung-a. Saranghae.
But why do you have to do that?
Being drunk isn't an excuse,it's mot reasonable.

Do you really have to do that?
I thought....after surpassing all those probkems from the past...I thought you're all mine after and that nothing's gonna interrupt us but...this is much painful than not seeing your for years. This is much painful than thinking that we can't be together.

Taehyung-a."

"Taehyung-a."

I whispered his name.

I cried silently.
I sniffed and didn't prevent myself from crying.

I feel pity for myself.
I wish to just die this evening.
Or at least to be unconscious for days.

I clenched my fist, digging my own nails to my palm. I don't care if it hurts.

It's nothing from what I am experiencing this time.

As I cried even more.
I hugged myself and without thinking, my nails autonatically digged to my arms.

I don't care if it's going to scratch my arms. I feel so mad that I just want to squeeze my own shoulders and arms.

I continued crying while hurting myself physically.

I feel so worthless and devastated.
My heart was torn into pieces, it was burnt until it turned black.

"Why can't I have a normal life?"

- Jisoo

I know she's crying.
I was listening, we are listening.
I'm looking at Chaeyoung and Lisa's who's facing me.

Lisa moved and faced the direction to the ceiling. She closed her eyes and sighed.

"Aren't we going to comfort her?"
    Lisa whispered just enough for us to hesr butnnot for Jennie.

I shook my head and answered.

"Let her tonight."
    I whispered.

Chaeyoung looked at Jennie's direction, but she can't look directly to Jennie since, we want Jennienti believe that we are asleep.

"Taehyung-a.

We know that you suffered so much to get her legally and offically.

But this is more than anything.
We are talking about cheating.

For me...it's better to see you being tortured for your love for Jennie, than listening to Jennie's silent cry."