Lost Memories (Taehyung x Jennie) [Book 2]

◆ Thirty - Two ◆

- Taehyung

We have done a performance at Inkigayo today...

Half of me wants her to see it and the other half don't want her to.

I know she'll feel the pain once she's going to see me.

I looked at my wrist watch...
Jennie's gift for me on my birthday.
I haven't removed it since the night she left, the night I cheated.

This watch is more expensive than my life, it's water proof and consist of real silver.

I smiled while staring at it.

Just when I was staring at the watch while sitting on my bed...I heare voices of ladies.

First...Lisa.
Second....Jisoo.
Third...Chaeyoung.
And fourth....

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There's no fourth...
She's not coming.

I locked the door so no one would disturb or interrupt.

I took out my phone from under my pillow.

I turned it on and as I landed my eyes to the screen.

My heart breaks into pieces immediately.

I saw our sweet picture which I kissed her and she has a shock reaction. I missed her.

"Jendeukie.

I know you're mad.

I'm fully aware that everything's my fault.

But won't you let me talk to you?"

I have typed a message to send to Jennie's number...

"Let me talk to you, just once."

But I can't press this send thing.
My finger won't cooperate and my thoughts don't want to be neglected again.

"I just want to talk to you."

I honestly want to, I'm sincere and honest about apologizing.

"What should I do for you to let me talk to you?"

I opened the gallery and saw several videos formed in Boomerang. She also have filmed herself....what's this? This is the first time I saw this.

Upon seeing a video I haven't seen yet, I clicked it.

"Annyeong, Taehyung-a.

I have done this with your phome while you're in the bathroom. Ah..um...I jist want to say thank you for fighting for me.

The reason why I'm recording this is that, so you can listen to me even though I'm mad. Like, when we have a misunderstanding, I want you to listen here.

I love you with everything of me.
I love you since the day I first told you that I did.
I love you and there's no reason for that.
For me, the definition of love was you and me. We have been aparted many times yet we fought for us. We lifted both of us.

I also want to say thank you because you're still here...despite of being neglected and rejected by my parents. Good thing, they accept everything now. They are supporting us now.

Thank you for fighting for me.
Thank you for fighting for us.
Thank you for loving me.

Umm...saranghaeyo, Taehyung-a.
Don't forget that. Even though I have an amnesia, I won't forget that I love you so you shouldn't too.

Until eternity, I'll love you with all of me."

And the video ended...
Her words...
Her words just hit me million of times.

Upon hesring her voice with this...
Upon seeing her smiling at the video...
Upon listening to her phrases...

My tears feel down quickly from my eyes.
Every tears are falling down on my lap. I squeezed my eyes and wiped the tears off but even though I'll wipe it with my shirt...

I'm still crying.

"Jennie-a."

"Jennie."

"Mianhe."

"Mianhe, joengmal mianhe."

"Jennie."

I keep on talking to myself while punching my chest.

"It's all my fault.
I have cheated...
I intentionally did it.
Right?

I'm the one who made it.

I'm such a stupid man for letting a woman to be treated like that.

I shouldn't have treated her like that.

I should have thought of everything first befofre talking to Irene.

I should've pulled myself from that kiss.

That seductive kiss from Irene.

I shouldn't have listened to her words.

I should have stayed only with Jennie's side that night.

I shouldn't ler myself ti get tempted wuth Irene's words...

But...
Regreting all of these now...
Was all late...

It's too late to regret.
I want to fix these and I need to do it.
But how? How?
She's not even sending replies.
Her friends don't want me to talk to her either.

....Jennie.
Jebal."

I sad beside my bed and leaned my face to my knees.

Comforting myself and full of regrets.

"I'm still worthless...

I still can't have you."

That time when I almost have you...
I also have wasted you...

"I wasted everything...
I wasted you...

A precious thing...
I threw a precious thing.
I have destroyed the thing that should be kept.

Jennie."

"Jennie...

Jeongmal mianhe."