Lost Memories (Taehyung x Jennie) [Book 2]

◆ Thirty - One ◆

- Jennie

After gazing to the cloudy sky for an hour, I went to the bathroom and took a bath.

I took maybe 40 minutes bathing on the tub, with water that the temperature was hot. It is so relaxing. I lied there for minutes without thinking anything nor him.

I bathed with a soap that scents like a rose.

After taking a bath, I m've gone to the dressing room. I chose nothing but a spaghetti top and a short. I wore a green silk robe to cover myself out.

After dressing up, I brushed my hair.
I looked atnthe mirror and fixed myself.
I want to see the numb side of me.

After fixing and grooming myself, I went out and gone to the kitchen, no one's there. Maybe they are doing something else.

So, instead of calling them, I made a hot chocolate on my own. Good thing, I know how to do things on my own even though I'm being served here.

After stirring the chocolate, I went back to my room. As I did, the rain starts falling.

I sat on the chair om the balcony once again and watched the rain to fall.

The wind blowing through me was definitely cold and it was shivering me.

I smiled as I looked up at the clouds.

"We're the same."

I thought.
Then I placed the cup of the hot chocolate on the table and walked until I reached my bed. I lied and tucked myself under the blanket.

I looked at my phone which is just beside me.

I was about to get it but my hand refuses and my thoughts don't want to.

I closed my eyes and think...

"I'm fine.

I'm fine."

I'm pushing myself that I'm fine and while saying that on my mind, the raindrops became bigger and the sound of the rain became louder.

It was like...a storm was hitting the land.

Upon hearing the rain...
I couldn't help but to join the sky crying.

My eyes were closed but tears are falling down fast.

I crouched while lying.
Elbows tocuhing my knees while I am clenching my fist and hugging myself.

Here I go again.
Going to scratch myself...
Hugging myself and squeezing my arms.

"I'm fine."

Once again, I told to myself.

I want to stop from crying but while tryinh to do it...my eyes will let out more tears.

I cried just like the clouds are doing.
I can feel everything cold.
I'm ravaged inside.
I'm still thinking about everything.

"I want to forget.
I just want to forget.

Maybe, the reason why I got this amnesia was to literally forget about you but we end up seeing each other again...

And now...

We're like this...

Aparted...

Cheated...

Divided...

Disunited...

Separated...

We broke up...

Our relationship have vanished...
Everything have dropped out of our sight.

I'm honestly missing everything...I'm missing you...but...

I don't think we will really last until when we promised...eternity? No...we can't.

Maybe you and her will do it...
Maybe she's really the one that will fulfill everything in your dreams...

Just like what I thought...
You're still affected about your past with her and that you still love her...

That's why you cheated...
That's why you have vanished our relationship like that.

I'm so stupid not to see what m's going to happen on that night, I'm so blind.

Taehyung-a.

I want you to comeback and approach me for what you have done...

But I'd rather be happy to see you smiling with someone you can say that she's worthy to have you.

Saranghae."

I cried until I didn't notice...
I'm asleep.

I just automatically woke up.
I woke up with the sounds of the wind entering from the balcony.

I sat up and stared for at the carpet for seconds...I composed myself and went off from the bed, I walked to the mirror and looked at myself.

I chuckled upon looking at my reflection.

"You cried again.
You said, you're fine?
Then, what's that? Why have you cried?

Many people loved you.
Many people are cheering for you.
You should take care of yourself.

You're too valuable to let your tears get dry on your cheeks, Jennie."

I talked to my reflection.
I chuckled once again before turning around.

"Pabo, Jennie, pabo."
And that made my eyes to cry a bit.

I jumped to my bed again.
I looked at my phone.
Without thinking, I turned it on.

I opened the gallery and found several pictures of me and....Taehyung.

Some are funny that made me laugh.
Some are sweet that made me smile.

There's a video sent to me...
I haven't played it since it was sent when the party was going on.

I played it just now...
It is the video...of our vows...our informal vows...

While listening to it...

Tears have formed in my eyes again.
I laughed and wiped it off but as I did...again...tears flowed easily again.

"I thought vows can't be destroyed...

But for us..

Just on the night we have said that...

We also broke it."

※ END OF CHAPTER ※

NOTE:    Annyeong, yeorobun!

Jeongmal mianhe, I'm late for few...hours? Hahaha, sorry. It's almost 8pm when I came home from school, my schedule is so tough.

And...that's the reason.
I have no classes tomorrow, so, I'll update few chapters again.

Hope that you're still enjoying!
Kamsa for staying!!!