Heartthrobs and Secret Admirers (A Lippa FanFiction)

Chapter 16: Too Soon

A/N
Sorry this chapter is kinda depressing just a warning

Lin's POV:

All night I have bee trying to come up with a better way to break up with Rachel. If I take her way out I would feel terrible. I can't think of any other way than to say "Yeah I rather date Pippa".

I don't remember much from the wedding last night that doesn't involve me and Rachel fighting. I just know I drank, a lot, and slept on the couch last night. I hear Rachel walking into the room muttering something under her breath.

"I see you made your chose Lin!" What is she talking about and why is she yelling. I open my eyes and she her phone shoved in my face. I rub my eyes and they focus on a picture of me and Pippa out side the church last night making out. "Oh so that's what happened last night." She sighed and starts pacing back and forth across the room.

"Oh so you think this is funny? I gave you an out last night and instead of texting me back you were out swapping spit with Pippa. I not even going to give you the chose anymore Lin I'm tired of you and your sluts-" She stops pacing and stares at the other side of the room. "Don't call Pippa a slut!" I sit up to see what she is staring at. Pippa.

"So you just see me as some slut that got knocked up. You can't blame everything on Lin, sure he mess up more than a few times but you decided to stay." Pippa is furious, but I can't let her fight my battles. She has enough to focus on right now. I get up and help Pippa to the couch. "You really shouldn't be up on your feet Pip, especially with all the stress right now." 

"Oh my good I can't handle you two. You've been out for two minutes and ugh!" Rachel stops when she sees Sebastian is wake and in the room.  "Mommy Pippa what's wrong?" Pippa helps him into get lap and soothes him.

"I don't know how I missed it, I only found out yesterday and this whole fucking time he has been calling her mommy. I must be fucking blind." Pippa covers Sebby's ears and carries him out of the room.

"Rachel I get you are upset but please don't take this out on Phillipa or Sebastian. I'm the one to blame."

"You are doing it again! Stop protecting her, you have been doing it since the day we met. You said something about a girl breaking your heart and I said 'what a bitch' and you yelled at me! Why can't you-" Pippa covers back into the room with her hands on her stomach. "What the fuck do you want?"

I just ignore Rachel running to Pippa's side. "What's wrong?" She look up at me why fear in her eyes. "My water broke."

"Shit shit shit shit shit shit" Is all I can manage to say as I get Pippa and Sebastian into the car. On the way to the hospital Pippa keeps mentioning how early the baby is and what could be wrong with it. I try to assure her everything will be fine but I have no clue the best I can do is hope.

We get to the hospital and I wheel Pippa inside. She called Daveed on the way here, he said he would be here as soon as he could. Pippa get settled into a room while I take Sebby to Linda the front desk lady.

"Lin what brings you back here today? I saw you have had a drama filled love life lately." Linda is always cheerful but a bit nosey. "Hey Linda! My um girlfriend or um friend is in labor. Do you mind watching Sebby for a while?" She looks at me with a smirk. "Would this girlfriend or um friend be Phillipa Soo?" I can feel my cheeks turning red as I simply nod in reponse. "Oo. And of course I'll watch the little man. Go on and see your girlfriend or um friend."

I run as fast as I can to Pippa's room. When I open the door Daveed is there. "Hey dude!" I blurt out awkwardly running my fingers through my hair.

Pippa says that she wanted to talk about a few things before the baby comes and pats the bed, signaling us to sit. Every once and a while she is cut off by a contradiction.

"I just wanted to talk about what is going to happy after the baby comes. But first I need a few answers from you two." Daveed and I look at eachother and nod. My heart is racing soon we will finally have the answer of who's the father. "So first Daveed, if the baby is yours do you want to be part of their life?" He grabs her hands and looks her in the eyes tears running down both of their faces. "Of course I do Pippa, if it is my child I want to be there as much as I can. Even though we wouldn't be together I will be there for you every step of the way. I would want our child to know I'm their father and will always be there for them for anything even though you and me aren't together."

This really hits me in the heart. This whole time I've just assumed that it was going to be my kid. This it the first time I thought about the the kid not being mine. I feel my face getting hot and red, I reach up and touch my cheek it's covered in tears. When did that happen? If the kid isn't mine where does that leave me and Pippa? We finally have the opportunity to be together, but I don't want Daveed to be there every second something is happening in the baby's life. I don't want the baby to be his. I want it to be mine. I already love them.

Pippa grabs my hand to get my attention. "Hey Lin are you okay?" Snap out of it Lin. "Yeah sorry I was just thinking." Pippa smiles through her tears and pushes my hair out of my face. "That's what I love about you, you are always thinking. Before I ask about the baby I want to know about us, what are we? I assuming things are done with you and Rachel." Unable to say anything in response I simply nod. "Then do you want to try things out? After a year of chasing eachother we finally have the option to be with together. I'm willing to give it a try if you are."

The tears are now unstoppable I probably look like a blubbering mess but I don't care. Pippa just asked me out, like to be her boyfriend!!

"Of course I want to try things out!" I immediately go in for a kiss. Then I remember Daveed is like a foot away from me and break the kiss before it gets too intense.

"Before you even ask of course I will be there for the baby regardless of who the father is. I have already loved this little being from the moment I saw you were pregnant. No matter what happens with you me Daveed and the baby I will always be here, you will always be able to count on me." I kiss the top of her head and wipe the tears from her face.

A few minutes later the doctor comes in to check on Pippa, he says it is time to push. Daveed and I each hold one of Pippa's hands for support. The first few pushes she squeezes extremely hard causing my hand to go numb. That's nothing compared to the final push I swear I hear a pop from my hand then the baby crying.

I continue to hold Pippa's hand while the doctor checks to make sure the baby is okay since she is three weeks early. I hear him say the baby is a healthy little girl. My heart is filled with so much joy I don't know what to do. The baby is healthy! I look at Pippa to celebrate but she doesn't look to good, her face is pale and her grip on my hand has become extremely weak.

Her eyes begin to shut when the monitor starts beeping. Quickly the doctor switches his focus to Pippa and more nurses enter the room. The begin doing CRP but the monitor continues to beep loudly. I can't lose Pippa she is finally mine.

The doctor yells out "clear" then uses the paddles I see in movies on Pippa. The monitor continues beeping. I can't do anything to make her better I feel helpless. How could this be happening right now? The doctor used the paddles a third time and the monitor goes back to it's normal steady beep.

As soon as the doctor says its she is okay I run to her side. She is still unconscious but I still tell her how much she means to me and kiss her head. I stay here the rest of the night waiting to wake up. At this point finding out the father is the last thing on mind.

A/N
Two updates in a day!? I just felt really motivated to write today idk why. Sorry that this chapter is depressing it should get happier hopefully.

See you in the next chapter!
~K