Heartthrobs and Secret Admirers (A Lippa FanFiction)

Chapter Twenty-One: Rachel

A/N
Sorry this chapter is depressing.

Lin's POV:

Pippa and I talked everything out last night, me and Rachel, everything that happened in Europe and about our relationship. She accepted all my baggage saying she remembers hurting me at one point, although she doesn't remember what she did.

It's the middle of the night but I can't sleep. I just keep thinking of everything Pippa is going through. I want to take all her pain away and put it on me, I want everything to go back to how it was. I reach out to pull Pippa closer to me but she isn't there. Why isn't she in bed?

I sit up and see she isn't here. I look at the clock - 3:06. Where is Pippa? I get out of bed to look for her. I check the bathroom, kitchen, living room and the spare room. I can't find Pippa, or Rachel.

I decide to check on the kids and find Pippa on the floor crying. I rush to her side immediately. "Pip what's wrong?" all she does is point at the crib. Its empty.

"Where is Netty?" She cries stop for a moment as she looks me in the eyes. "I thought it was odd she didn't cry for us yet so I came to check on her but she was gone. Where would she be Lin?" A new stream of tears stain her face as I leave to room to find Rachel.

Where the hell is she? I go back to the guest room to check again. There is something that I didn't notice before. All of Rachel's things are gone and there is a letter on the bed.

To the happy couple,
It's not fair for you two to take everything away from me and leave me with nothing. Pippa I bet everything in live has been given to you. You got one of the best roles on Broadway when you where 24. You stole my boyfriend from me with our even trying and you get the baby. That's going to change tonight. I'm going to get something I want for a change. You can keep my shitty boyfriend, I'm taking his child with me to Europe. It should have been mine anyways. Lin, have fun with your new toy try not to hurt her like you did me.
~Rachel

How could she just take our kid like that. I frantically find my phone dial Rachel's number.

"Hey Lin!"

"Hey Lin! What the hell is that. I found your letter. What the fuck are you think-" I'm cut off by the call ending.

Go give the letter to Pippa and try to call Rachel back.

"Hey!"

"You need to bring back my kid now. This isn't a game Rachel."

"I don't see it a game. The kid is mine now I'm not bring her back."

"YOU ARE GOING YO BRING BACK MY KID YOU LITTLE BITCH OR I'LL-" Once again I'm cut off by Rachel hanging up on me.

I can't hold it in anymore. I was trying to be strong for Pippa but I can't anymore. I let myself collapse on the living room floor. I feel my body go numb and tears streaming down my face.

Pippa comes into the room with tears down her face. "You're the father?" I can't get my self to respond. Everytime I open my mouth no words come out. "Why didn't you say anything?" Again I am unable to respond. I just lay useless on the ground.

"Call the police." Is all that I manage to whisper after a few minutes of sitting in shock.

"My daughter has been kidnapped...Yes, she was kidnapped by my roommate....My daughter's name is Lynnette Soo, she is two months old....Yes I know for sure it was my roommate, she left a note....My boyfriend found it on her bed....Sure my address is.."

I stop listening to the phone call with the police, all I can think about is how this is all my fault. If I never ran away from the problems with Pippa I would have been here for her the whole time. We would have been together and Pippa wouldn't have been stressed out. She would have had a regular labor and we would be happy starting our little family. Rachel never would have come into our lives. I wouldn't have hurt so many people. And most important, my daughter would still be here with us.

How could I have been so stupid to fuck everything up? Why did I have to run away from my problems. I start hitting myself in the head and yell 'stupid' over and over.

Pippa grabs my arms to stop me from hitting myself, but I am able to easily get out of her grip. "Lin please. Don't do this to yourself."

I can't keep hurting Pippa. I have to stay strong for her. I sit up and pull Pippa into a bear hug. "I'm sorry Pippa." I try to hold back a new stream of tears but they come pouring down anyways.

A knock on the door causes Pippa to jump. "Shhh. its okay I got it" I open the door and two police officers enter the apartment. I try to talk to them but everytime I try my sobs over power my words. Pippa tries to take over for me but the same happens to her. I have to be strong for Pippa.

Eventually the tears stop and I am able to explain the situation to the officers. I give them the letter and they take it for evidence. By the time they leave it is now six o'clock.

Six it the time I would be getting up if today was any other day. I would get ready for my day, make Pippa breakfast, get the kids ready for daycare then make my way to the theater. When I drop of Sebastian the people who work there will see I'm a mess. What does Sebastian know about this past night? Will he tell the daycare? Will they tell new reporters?

Everything I've done for my kids was to keep them safe, I don't post pictures of them and ask that others follow my rule. After all the procations I've taken my child still got kidnapped. The one I never even had a chance to protect.

Pippa and I make our way to the theater. We aren't in the show anymore but I still like to stop by and check on things. I made plans with Tommy to go over a few things with the new cast.

Pippa and I sneak in the stage door without getting noticed. I don't think I could handle getting confronted by a fan. I make my way to my old dressing room to say hello to Javier, Pippa follows me not wanting to deal with anyone without me.

I try to hid my emotions from him but he can see right through me. "Is everything okay with you two? Not trying to be rude but you both look kind of rough." Pippa just looks at me but I don't know what to say. "C'Mon we're like family you can tell me anything."

I take Pippa's hand in mine and squeeze it tightly. "My ex kidnapped Lynnette in the middle of the night."

"She did? Oh guys you didn't have to come today. We would have understood."

"The police are looking into it and told us to sit tight. We would just be sulking at home, this helps me to stay strong."

"You don't always have to stay strong Lin."

After we told Javier the bad news Pippa and I decided to tell the rest of the Hamilton crew. It was all too much for Pippa so afterwards Renee and Jazzy picked her up and took her home. I stayed at the theater, I told Tommy I would be here and I'm a man of my word.

We run through the end of act two. Tommy said the cast was having a difficult time reaching the emotions that arise at the end of the act. Today they had no problem.

Quite uptown specifically touched my heart. It now has so much meaning to me. After all the shit I put Pippa through she forgave me and now we lost a child -hopefully only temporarily. When the ensemble gets to 'forgiveness can you imagine' I loose it.

I start bawling my eyes out. Before anyone can see I run to my car. I text Tommy I'm sorry but I can't handle it anymore and had to leave. I drive to a secluded part of town and park my car. I put on the les miserable sound track and let the tears pour down my face. I let myself feel sorry for me. I let myself drown in my emotions.

A/N
Sorry for the depressing chapter. I've been thinking about taking the story this way for a while so I did. I'm still sick so you're still getting updates this week! Enjoy it while it last because when I get better I probably won't update for a while.
See you in the next chapter!
~K