Heartthrobs and Secret Admirers (A Lippa FanFiction)

Chapter 17: Steven!?

Lin's POV:

Pippa has been in a coma for the past two weeks. Her heart stopped after the baby was delivered and the lack of blood caused her brain to swell. I haven't had time to worry about who the baby's father is right now Pippa is my focus, she has to get better. We were finally going to be together. The baby is ready to go home today so the doctors wanted to find out who the father is so the baby has someone to take of it. It was a girl. Daveed said we should name her since Pippa might not get better to meet her daughter.  I'm not accepting that outcome. Pippa needs to survive for me. I want Pippa to be able to name her daughter. She was so excited about having a child of her own, even if was unexpected.

Rachel hasn't moved out yet she is staying in Pippa's old room. I moved all of Pippa's things into our room. Rachel said she is only staying until she finds an apartment off in Europe somewhere, who knows how long that will take. Rachel staying around isn't too bad though, she has been able to help with Sebastian since I've been spending all my free time at the hospital it has been very helpful.

Daveed and I are waiting in Pippa's room for the results of the blood test saying who the father is. I am sitting in a chair pushed close to the medical bed, I sit like this everytime I come and hold Pippa's hand so if she wakes up I will be the first thing she sees. Daveed is across in a chair by the window just sitting on his phone.

I don't understand how he can be this calm about the whole situation. How can he just shit there perfectly fine like nothing is wrong? I've been a hot mess the past two weeks, I haven't been eating, sleeping or twittering. And to be honest I could probably use a shower. But I can't. What if I miss a phone call from the doctor about Pippa when I'm in the shower I can't risk it. I have to be able to get here as soon as possible if something changes.

The doctor comes in with the clipboard containing the results. He hands Daveed and me a few tissues explaining these situations can be very emotional. He clears his throat and looks down at his clipboard, avoiding eye contact with us potential fathers. "The father of Phillipa Soo's daughters is Mister Lin Manuel Miranda. I will bring the birth certificate for you to sign shortly." He leaves without saying anything else.

It takes a few minutes for everything to sink in. I have a daughter! I've just assumed she was mine and when I realized she might not be I shut down my emotions but now all the emotions are rushing in. I look at Daveed not knowing what to do.

"That was a close one." He laughs patting my back. "Now that's over I don't have to deal with the drama that is Phillipa Soo anymore! Good luck with that one." What does he mean the drama that is Phillipa Soo? I get up to say something back but decide to hold my tongue.

"Sure, see you later," I call as he leaves the room.

How could he say something like that about Pippa? Anyone to have her in their life is lucky. Daveed is missing out on losing Pippa. She is a wonderful caring, kind, beautiful human being. I know I'm better off having her in my life. Every time she is gone from my life it becomes a mess. When I was in Europe for five months I was a total wreak. I got in a relationship, I shouldn't have been in, just out of pure loneliness. I thought I would never have a chance with Pippa so I tried to move on but all I did was hurt more people.

While trying to fill the empty void left by Pippa's absence I cheated on Rachel more times than I can count. I know I can't  blame it on Rachel but she just doesn't match up to Pip. No one can.

The doctor comes back with the papers and infant. She is beautiful. I never really looked at her before. I didn't want to become attached in case she wasn't mine. I hold her in my arms for the first time. She is so small, much smaller than Sebastian when he was born. The doctors said it was because she was early but everything else seems to be fine with her. Thank god. I don't know what I would do if I found out she was mine and I lost her and Pip.

I text Renee to tell her the baby is mine ask her to bring Sebby to the hospital to meet his sister. She texts back a few minutes later happily agreeing.

Waiting for Renee and Sebby I watch the calm breathing of the new light of life. She resembles her mother quite a bit, she has Pippa's eyes and noses. When Renee enters the room with Sebastian I keep my focus on the little angel in my arms but tell the two to come to me.

Sebby brushed his had down her face and gives her a kiss on the cheek and asks me"Can I hold her?". I'm reluctant to let him but give in. I sit Sebby down on the chair and carefully place the baby in his arms.

I turn around and see Renee sitting by Pippa's bed, I notice a single tear falling down her face. She notices me watching her and quickly wipes it way. "It's okay Renee. There a lot of emotions that need to be let out. You don't need to hide it." She just smiles at me then looks back at Pippa. "I thought everything would be better now, I thought she would be better now." More tears begin falling down Renee's face. 

I thought everything would be better by now too, I thought this was going to be a short temporary deal then Pippa and I could start our little family and be happy together. Everday this situation seems more and more permanent. What is Pippa never wakes up? I would be a single father of a toddler and a newborn. I couldn't manage to raise them both on my own, the only reason I was able to take care of Sebastian after Vanessa died was because of Pippa. 

"Lin are you okay?" Renee pulls me out of my thoughts and I realize I'm standing in the middle of the room and my shirt is stained with my tears. I run to Pippa's bed and place my head on her chest and cry. "You have to get better Pip! You have to wake up for me! I need you. Please, Pip wake up!" Renee takes my children out of the room so they don't have to witness any more of my break down, but I don't care, I just continue crying to Pippa.

Renee text me telling me that the kids are staying the night at her house so I don't have to worry about them and can stay at the hospital. I haven't left Pippa's hospital bed since I started crying earlier today. She used to cry into my chest about her problems so much has changed in one year. I cry myself to sleep in her bed.

I am woken up by a jab in my side. I just ignore it but it happens again. I open my eyes and see Pippa's staring right back at me. "You're awake!" I squeal as I immediately wrap my arms around her giving her the biggest hug I've ever given. 

"How long have I been asleep for?" 

"You have been in a coma for the past two weeks, there was a complication during your labor an-" 

"My what?!" She cuts me off. "I wasn't even pregnant. Where is Steven?"

A/N

Cliffhanger! I didn't know what to name the baby so I didn't name it. If you have any suggestions please leave a comment becuse I'm clueless. Anyways....

See you in the next chapter!