Heartthrobs and Secret Admirers (A Lippa FanFiction)

Chapter Thirty-Seven: Fine

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I've been throwing up everyday for the post week. Today is not an exception to that. My head in in the the tolliet bowl as I hear my phone ring. It's probably Lin. He has called this time everyday for the past month but I have yet to answer him.

Shit. Thinking about Lin while I'm hunched over the toilet makes me realize what is happening. I'm pregnant. But I can't be. I'm moving on, I'm starting a new life. Plus Lin and I used a condom both times before I left. Then I can't be pregnant. I'm not pregnant.

I start working myself up, making my breathing heavy and my thoughts uncontrollable. Different scenarios play through my head of what life might be like with another little baby. Stop Pippa you're not pregnant, you can't be.

My thoughts take over and I break down on the floor cry. I want to talk to Lin so badly but I can't, I can't let myself talk him. I'm probably just sick, the flu season has been really bad this year. Yes! I have the flew.

I fell the sudden urge to hurl again. As I sit with my head in a toilet bowl I come to the realization that I need to take a test.

I run to the nearest corner store and pick up a test. When I get back to the hotel I immediately take it. Waiting for my timer to go off is excruciating.

Finally my phone dings telling me the results are ready. I pick the stick off the counter, there is a plus sign.

This can't be right I'm not pregnant. I run back to the store and by two more test. Both of which turn out positive as well.

This can't be happening. I'm not ready to have another child. I can't even take care of the one I already have. I left my infant across the ocean in a whole different country.

Before I make any decisions I need to tell Lin. I can't do the same things I did last time. He deserves to know.

I book the soonest flight to New York and next thing I know I'm standing in front of my old home. Full of so many memories, more bad than good.

Walking in like I live here doesn't feel right. I walked away from this life, it's not supposed to be as easy to just walk back in. Plus last time I walked into the apartment after not seeing Lin for a while I walked in on him having sex. I never want that to happen again.

I wait outside for Lin's daily call. He calls me every day at seven o'clock, I never answer but he still calls anyways. He always calls.

The clock on my phone turns to seven, immediately I get Lin's call. I answer without saying anything, but he still knows I'm here. He sounds surprised but grateful at the same time.

"Pip, you okay?" Lin snaps me into the present. "you've been staring out the window for like thirty minutes."

"Yeah, I'm good. I'm just thinking."

"About?"

"If I hadn't found out I'm pregnant I wouldn't be here, holding our daughter, Sebastian wouldn't have called me mommy, I would be missing out on having the most wonderful man in the world in my life even longer. I'm happy Netty is your daughter, because no matter what happens in life there is always something that is going to connect us, someone who is always going to bring us back together."