The Quiet

Chapter 18

Chapter 18

*Athena's Point of View*

           I sat down next to Damon at a lunch table we always sat at. I sighed loudly and confidently said, "I fucked up." He stared at me and was so very confused and shocked.

           "Oh my god! She speaks!" He joked and I slapped his shoulder. My brain felt empty even if I was now able to speak my feelings. I knew that boy was going to say something to me about speaking and he is going to be proud of himself. He doesn't deserve that. My eyes stood frozen on a spot on the floor which happens when I think, I didn't even realize that Nathan sat down next to me.

           "We need to finish our talk," he stated. I looked over at Damon but he was already away talking to the other burnouts at my school. I didn't have anyone to help me out.

           "Fine," I said loudly and walked out of the building to smoke, something I needed to make it through this conversation. Nathan sat there for a few seconds, confused that I physically said something but he came back to reality after a few seconds. I pulled out my cigarette and immediately lit it before he started talking. "Since when have you started talking again?" He asked but I simply took another drag. "Because of that guy?" Nathan motioned his head towards someone behind me. I turned and saw Dean sitting on the cement barrier, smoking just like I was. Dean didn't even know we were out there, near him.

           "That's not your business anymore, Nathan. It was never your business, to begin with." I snapped at him. He was going to act like his old self again and I wasn't having it today. I started talking again and I thought that would be good for me but I guess not. "You shouldn't care who I associate myself with."My anger rose as well as my voice level.

           "I do care because you still mean something to me and I don't want you to lose everything for a burnout like him." Nathan was yelling and pointing at Dean. I pushed his hand down, trying to silence him and his actions.

           "So someone like you?" I asked in a snarky voice. He stood there with fire in his eyes. He wasn't a burnout, he was an ass but at least he tried to make something of his life. I wanted him to be so angry that he would leave and never speak to me again. I was about to make another comment but Nathan grabbed my face before I was able to. He smashed his lips to mine, making me stop talking. I was shocked and utterly confused but I kissed back. I didn't know what came over me but I wanted to kiss him back so I did. It lasted very shortly but it was different, it wasn't like it was with Mason. Nathan wasn't rough, his lips were soft, it was a passionate sensation.

           Dean grabbed me by the waist and pulled me away from Nathan who was even angry at his action. I didn't feel scared of Dean, I felt more protected by Dean for some odd reason. I didn't know what he was capable of, but the way he didn't squeeze my body when he held me. It was strong enough so I couldn't slip away but not too strong to hurt me. "What are you doing? Let go of her, you freak!" Nathan barked at Dean. I didn't fight against Dean, I needed to get away from Nathan. He did so much to me, said so many hurtful things. I couldn't let myself forget that. Him kissing me is probably just a game or a bet to him, it was stupid of me to kiss him back and think it meant something. "So you are fucking with the freak?! You know what I should've known." His words were covered, dripping with venom. Finally, the real him comes out.

            "Nathan, don't!" I yelled at him. I knew what he was going to say, he always says it. The comments he always makes when another guy is near me or talks to me or does anything relatively near me. Slut. I shouldn't have thought that he changed in such a short period of time. "You mean something to me" was all a lie I thought. I knew I shouldn't have come back, it was all a waste.