Olivia's Story

Chapter 17

I'm at home packing my clothes and stuff. I don't need most of this stuff.

We're donating damn near the whole house. There's nothing else to do with the stuff. We can sell it but we want to donate it.

While I was folding my last pair of pants my phone starred ringing. I looked and it's Cali. After it stopped ringing I turned my phone off.

I haven't talked to anyone but my daddy since I found out she died the day before yesterday. Everybody been blowing me up trying to see if I was okay.

I don't feel like talking to anyone or eating or anything. I'm surprised I gathered enough strength to pack my stuff.

I got back into my bed and curled up under my covers. I started crying.

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Somebody started banging on the door.

I don't even care. I don't feel like opening it and I don't feel like being around anyone.

Rocks started hitting my window as somebody banged on the door. Are they serious? Like obviously I want to be alone so leave me the fuck alone.

Nathan and Jayden just ran in my room as I heard the door getting busted open. "You okay?", Jayden asked as my window opened.

"Why you not answerin' yo' phone?", Nathan asked. "Who the fuck are you?"

"Trever.", I heard Trever say.

"Olivia?!", I heard my daddy yell.

"Olivia?!", I heard Cali yell.

"We're in her room, she's okay!", Jayden yelled. My daddy and Cali came in. They all started yelling at once about how worried they were and about how I should've answered my phone. I covered my face and cried.

"Wait, wait, wait!", my daddy said loudly trying to shut them up. It didn't work. "Aye shut the fuck up!", he yelled. They stopped talking. "Princess don't cry, we were just worried." I kept my hand over my face and cried. Somebody touched my making me jump.

"Don't touch me!", I shouted. "Just leave me alone." It got quiet.

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When I got up to use the bathroom everybody was still there. Some leaning on the wall, some sitting on my dresser and one sitting on my desk. I shook my head then went to the bathroom.

After I was done I went back to my room. I looked at everybody. They must really care about me.

I laid on my daddy and he wrapped his arm around me. "Princess we gotta start moving yo' stuff.", my daddy said.

"Okay.", I said after a minute. I got back in bed and my daddy and Nathan and Jayden started grabbing my stuff.

"Need help?", Trever asked.

"Umm yeah.", my daddy said. Trever grabbed something and they left. Cali got in bed with me and laid on me.

"Liv I'm so sorry.", Cali said. I didn't say anything. Tears just ran down down my face. I can't believe she's gone.

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I'm in my bed at my daddy house now my house, again, holding a picture of my momma to my chest. This shit is crazy.

I made it here last night after all of my stuff got moved in.

Somebody knocked on my door but I didn't answer it. They knocked again. I still didn't respond. The door opened. It's Nia with a plate of food. "Hey sweetie, you hungry?", she asked. I didn't answer her or look at her. She sat on my bed. "I lost my mom when I was 17 too, she had cancer." I looked at her. "She was my rock. It was just me and her. I got really depressed, lost a lot of weight, didn't shower, missed school, I just went down. I don't want that for you and Emily wouldn't either. She don't want you to go back down, we don't either. She wants you to be happy Olivia, we want that too. We hate seeing you like this Liv. I know it's hard right now but I it will get better, I promise it will get better. Just know that she's looking over you Olivia and just know that she wouldn't want this. I'm gonna leave this plate here just in case you change your mind." She put the plate down and kissed my head then left. She's right my momma wouldn't want this but I just can't.

Somebody else knocked on my door once again I didn't answer it. My door opened it's Cali. She closed the door and walked to me. She just looked at me and I just looked at her. "You need to eat.", she said.

"I can't Cali.", I said.

"You can't or you won't?"

"I can't Cali."

"Yes you can Olivia. Push yourself. Momma wouldn't want this and you know that. Eat, take a shower, do your hair, do something, anything but lay here. Olivia it hurts seeing you like this." I just looked at her. "Please Olivia, please get up." I closed my eyes. I heard the door close a few minutes later. They're right. I slowly sat up and grabbed the plate and started eating.

After I finished eating I took a long hot shower and washed my hair.

After that I did everything I needed to do then threw something on. I got in bed and tried sleeping. After what felt like hours I dozed off.