Olivia's Story

Chapter 28

I just got home. I been in a mental hospital since I almost pulled the trigger. I missed the first 3 days of school and I'm on 8 different medications. They're for depression, anxiety, PTSD, and something to help me sleep. I only take the sleeping meds as needed and I take everything else everyday.

I'm standing outside of the house looking at the door as my daddy grabbed my bags. Everybody is here and I don't know how I feel about that. "What's wrong?", I heard my daddy ask.

"Nothin', nothin'.", I said.

"You sure?"

"Yeah, I just don't know how I feel about everybody being here."

"I can kick everybody out if you want but I gotta stay.", he said.

"No it's fine, they can stay.", I said. He walked past me and put my bags down. He unlocked the door and opened it then grabbed my bags. He moved over and I went in. Once I walked in I smelled food and heard laughing. I took a deep breath as I followed the laughter to the kitchen. I went in. "Hey.", I said. They all ran to me and hugged me one by one. I felt the love in each hug.

I ended up crying. I feel so loved and I missed them so much.

Trever hugged me last for a long time. "I love you so much baby.", he whispered in my ear.

"I love you too.", I said. We let go. Everybody started talking.

My daddy walked in about 2 minutes later and joined the conversation.

...

I'm in my room laying down now, I got a headache. Everybody else is still downstairs.

I'm just laying here thinking about my life. I lost a few battles but I will win the war. I will make it.

While I was thinking somebody knocked on my door. "Come in.", I said. It's Trever.

"Hey.", Trever said.

"Hey."

"You alright?"

"Yeah.", I said.

"Good, good.", he said shaking his head. We just looked at each other in silence. "I read the letters, it wasn't your fault. None of it."

"I know, now. Can you lay with me, please?"

"Yeah." He took his shoes off and got in bed with me. He wrapped his arms around me tightly and rested his head on mine. I slowly drifted off.

...

"Were you really gonna do it?", Cali asked. We're in my room, Nia and Alexis is in the kitchen, and the guys are outside.

"Yeah.", I said. She shook her head up and down and looked away. She looked back at me with watery eyes.

"I don't know what I would do without you Liv. I don't wanna lose you.", she cried. I hugged her as tears rolled down my face. "Promise me that you'll never kill yourself."

"I promise."