Bungou Stray Dogs x Reader One Shots

Ranpo x Reader | Broken Radio

Requested by tmnt_nerd

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Dark thoughts, creeping inside of the depths of your mind, eyes, which haven't felt sleep for a couple of night, lips with bits of blood dried on them because of your habit of biting them too much.

"(Y/N)." A familiar voice woke you up from your scary thoughts

Lazily turning your head around as if your whole body was dusty like your soul, you looked at the man, who was vainly giving you everything he had just to see the smile on your face again

"What?" You answered, voice hoarse from crying too much

"How are you?" He asked, looking you directly in the eyes as if he was trying to find the bits of hope in them

"You know how I am. There's no need to ask it again." You answered

"I was just hoping, that your medicine would work or something." He replied

"Ranpo, it won't." You sighed, feeling the tiredness overcoming you again "It didn't work yesterday and it won't ever work. Just give up on me already."

"Why would I? You know, that I love you." He would always say

"But you shouldn't even bother seeking happiness with me." You said "There will be none. Nor today, not tomorrow, nor ever in the future. All I have to offer you is a hopeless despair and suffering."

He looked away at the wall, not being able to handle your wondering gaze anymore

"I wish, I could prove you, that you're wrong."

You didn't say anything. What was the point of talking if both of you were only repeating the same things over and over? Yes, they always meant something new to him, but never to you. It was the same old truth, that you hated with all your soul

Happy smiles, passing by you every day, made you feel like of it was a very big joke, that you didn't understand. Everyone around you seemed to be happy, yet you had no idea what was so fascinating in this life. You couldn't name a single thing, that could indeed be called beautiful. You were oblivious to what love and happiness were so what was the point of living then?

"(Y/N), are you still trying?" Ranpo asked suddenly, breaking the silence in the office

"What do you mean?" You asked him

"Are you still trying to feel anything? I mean, any positive emotion." He explained

"Who said, that I want to feel something? I take pills every day for the exactly opposite purpose. I want to be numb." You answered

"But you have once promised me to try to be happy." He reminded you "This is why, I'm trying to help you with this by giving you gifts and making you laugh sometimes."

"I can't be happy." You sighed, closing your weary eyes "Not in this world, at least."

He didn't ask you why because he understood you. He understood you, yet he couldn't accept the truth of you, not wanting to live and having no reason for it. He simply couldn't

"How about we go out for coffee?" You asked him, changing the theme

This repeated every day. Over and over like a broken radio, life repeated itself over and over

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Tbh I feel like Ranpo is OOC in this chapter