Bungou Stray Dogs x Reader One Shots

Chuuya x Reader | Icarus

Requested by AnimeAndKpopTrash

I was actually doubting wether I should write about the reader, using "her" or "you" and I decided to stick to "her" just so that, maybe, some people can imagine someone else because of such a specific plot

Warning: depression, triggering content, death mentions

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"Chuuya, you can't stay in bed forever." Kouyou said "You have to get up."

"I can and I will." The ginger groaned in the pillow "You won't make me move and there's no reason to since she is...not here."

Kouyou sighed, sitting on the bed next to the man, who she knew ever since he was a toddler.

Chuuya hasn't gotten out of his penthouse for almost a week already. He hasn't shown at work, he wasn't accepting any calls or messages from anyone, even from Kouyou, who basically replaced his mother. Chuuya hasn't eaten properly, hasn't taken a shower because he lacked energy. Guilt was weighing him down like metal chains weigh the prisoner and Chuuya was locked in his depression.

Why did he leave for work that day, without sending any guardians to stay with her? How could he be so irresponsible?? If he had any bits of mind left, he could have prevented the raid from the Mafia's enemies and he could have prevented finding out the corpse on the bedroom floor

Chuuya has seen hundreds of deaths in his life, but nothing has traumatized him like this. He was expecting to come home to the homemade dinner, but instead he came to the floor covered with blood

"Oh, my boy, what did you do to deserve it?" Kouyou sighed, brushing the hair on his head, that was silky already and definitely needed to be washed, but Chuuya physically couldn't get out of bed

"I don't know, Kouyou..." Chuuya answered quietly, nuzzling his face deeper into the pillow so that Kouyou wouldn't see tears, forming in his eyes "Only if I wasn't so stupid..."

"You're not stupid, Chuuya." Kouyou protested "It was something, that no one could prevented. Even the God, himself as we can see."

"I hate him and myself then. He almost growled "I hate this world. It took the only person, who I truly loved with all my rotten heart away from me. You know, that were even engaged?"

"I know, Chuuya." Kouyou answered quietly "And I know how you feel, trust me. That's why I'm not leaving you, until you are better and find a reason to live. I know you ever since you were a child, I have raised you and I won't let you do what you're thinking about."

"You can't know it."

"I do. Like a mother, I do."

Chuuya replied nothing. His slightly trembling shoulders were the answer and Kouyou couldn't help, but feeling her heart bleeding because the one, who she loved as her own son was dying right in front of her eyes

"You know...I was always warning her about the danger of getting close to me." Chuuya spoke "Yet, she was never scared or anything. It reminds about the legend of Icarus: just like him, she flew too close to the sun and burned her beautiful wings and I was the burning sun, who killed her."

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Not sure if anyone's gonna read this because people don't really read such messages, but this will be the last requests I'm making. I've accepted 3 more requests and these people are lucky because I won't be doing any more. I get too many negative because of some users, while doing the requests and I'm fed up. After this, I'm only doing things, that I have on my mind