Bungou Stray Dogs x Reader One Shots

Dazai x Reader | Shattered

Warning: triggering content

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"Free me."

His head turns to you sharply as his dark chocolate orbs bore into yours, bloodshot ones, that seemed to be filled with tears ever since you were born.

You stay still

"What did you just say?" His velvet, honey-sweet voice asks

You shake your head, trying to get the thoughts out of your head

Some hated silence but this was what you deeply desired right now. Sweet sounds of silence in your head - would be the best thing, one could ever give you

"Don't mind me." You reply quietly "Words just slipped out of my mouth."

He doesn't turn away and otherwise, continues staring deeply into your eyes, having no idea how hard it is for you. You hated it, when someone looked at you for you felt assailable and vulnerable (even though, this was all you ever were).

His eyes still are looking at you, attempting to find any bits of hope and happiness left in you, but little did he know that it was vain. God forgotten human does not deserve any hope or mercy. He could have realized it already from his own experience

"(Y/N), you know..." He started "We've been living together for about a month. You can trust me."

You look away. His eyes are too honest and warm to not lose yourself inside of them but you couldn't let yourself do that. Not now.

"Only if you knew how much of a broken person I am." You want to say but none of these words leave your mouth

You would scream those words out if you could but they stop in your throats halfway through. All the words you want to say are stuck in your throat like a dirt, but as the stayed inside, they eventually creeped into your skin, making your inner ugliness crawl out.

This was what you thought

"I can cope with it myself." You reply, looking out of the window "I don't want you to worry too much."

He sighs, looking away as well. Looking at you, made his eyes drip with tears, urging to come out and stream down his cheeks but he can't allow them to: he promised to protect you once, the protector cannot show any kind of weaknesses or else, you might feel his fear.

His head was empty. He urged to help you, he would give everything away only if he could help you, but a broken person cannot save another one. It's an old known truth that was discovered hundreds of years ago. He was way too shattered himself to help you. Strength left him long ago, despair crawled inside of him, living inside like some sort of a disease that was intending to leave him breathless one day

Pain gathered in his chest, wanting to break his ribcages to free itself and a sudden thought crosses his mind: only if he could save you from this destructive pain, he wouldn't mind having his bones broken and heart torn apart. Not at all

You shift at the unexpected sound of a broken glass as you turn away to look at Dazai.

He's standing there, with his cup of tea, shattered into pieces beneath his feet as tears broke from its cage and continued streaming down, not seeming to stop any sooner

The glass, shattered on the floor looks just like both your souls: broken and destroyed completely

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I had nth to do during PE so I managed to give you this