~KEITHS POV~
I woke up with Lance in my arms. Yesterday was out one year anniversary and it's still a blur to me. We stayed up almost all night dancing not wanting the day to end.
"Ur up already" Lance says with his eyes still closed.
"Just got up" I said. He muzzled his head into my chest and I wrap my arms around him.
"Go back to sleep its to early" He said half a sleep. I laid my head just above his trying to sleep some more.
We didn't leave the room once we were up we just stayed in.
" How does it feel knowing you've been stuck with me for a year" Lance says laughing
"I can't believe I even survived it" I said joking
"I got it easy...you're not that hard to deal with" He said punching my arm.
"Do you want to fight..." I said acting serous
"And have the satisfaction of winning" He said smiling
"Really" I said throwing him to the ground. He didn't see me coming and hit the ground hard. He quickly wrapped his arms around me to hold me down but I was able to hit him a few times in the side. Once I broke free he got up grabbing me by the side. He threw me to the ground pinning my arms down. I used my legs to kick his back but he had the upper hand. He used his legs to hold my hands to my sides making me Defenceless. He started ticking me making me squirm and I ended up kneeing him right on the back dropping him. I could tell I hurt him but he's to tough to give up. I got on top of him again this time he didn't fight back.
"Come on you really that weak" I said panting
"You kneed me in the back it's kinda hard to breath when you do that" He laughed in pain
"Hey... " I said looking at out situation "... You would be a cute bottom" I said letting out a breath.
"Over my dead body" He laughed
"I mean I would be on top of you" I winked
"Never gonna happen" He said. I pause not knowing what to say.
"Really?... Than no more from me" I said getting up. He wouldn't last a day.
"What?" He said following
"No more sex until you try it" I said trying to make a deal He can't be to forever.
"How is that fair" He said surprisingly upset
"Just try it it's not that bad" I said
"But I'm not a bottom that's just...weird" He said
"How is that weird? " I said not upset
"Im just not that kind of person" He said
"That person? You're gay... You're in a gay relationship that's who you are" I said raising my voice.
"Doesn't mean I have to be a bottom that's what you're for I'm a top." He said. I froze for a second blinking quickly in disbelief.
"So this whole thing is just for your pleasure" I said angry.
"I never said that-" I cut him off
"Never mind... I shouldn't have said anything" I said leaving. He tried to stop me but I was too angry to talk to him anymore.
~LANCES POV~
I didn't think I said anything wrong. I don't know why he's so upset. just because I don't want to be a bottom. He was being over dramatic and it's not really that big of a deal. I mean he's going to come running back to me anytime now so I'm not even worried about it.
The day went by and Keith hasn't come back to the room. I went to his room to look for him and found him laying on his bed.
"Care to explain why you ran off so fast" I asked. He didn't answer... He didn't even look up to me.
"Earth to Keith" I said trying to get his attention. He still didn't answer. I went over to his bed and sat down next to him
"I'm getting real tired of this attitude and if you won't tell me what I did wrong I can't help you" I said. He sat up
"The fact that you are so blind to what you said is enough reason to be mad" He said angry.
"So tell me what I said wrong" I yelled. He got up
"Just get out I don't want to deal with you right now" He said
"No we need to work this out first" I said putting my foot down
"You said being a bottom is what I'm "For" Like you only wanted me to pleasure yourself " He said
"I didn't mean to say it like that-"
"You don't mean to do a lot of things but look at us now" He rolled his eyes
"What do you want me to say?" I asked
"I just want you to care lance" He said finally looking at me
"I do care what are you talking about?" I asked
"You only care when it's convenient" He said
"That's not true... Look around you I gave you the best birthday you could have asked for" I said pointing out the pictures
"But you only did it with the only intention of getting rewarded for it... You didn't do it for me" He said
"That's not true. I did it for you I've done everything for you... If you want to play the blame game you never would have left me to work for the blade if you really cared" I said yelling still
" If I really cared?...you want to blame me for not caring yah how mature of you" He said with a fake little laugh making me even more angry
"You really think this is funny. You got all upset because I don't want to be a bottom and now were fighting over nothing. This is pointless" I said
"No what's pointless is believing someone could actually love you like family and not some toy" He said serious again
"What do you know about family!? You're an orphan Keith you don't have family" I said. Once it came out I regretted it. I wanted to take it back I know I messed up this time.
~KEITHS POV~
"... You don't have family." My heart shattered. Lance was supposed to be my family.
"I'm sorr-" He started to say
"No. I think you should leave" I said lowering my voice
"I didn't mean for it to go this far Keith I'm sorry" He said again
"I don't want to hear it lance" I said lowering my eyes
"Keith we can talk about this I didn't mean to say that... I can fix it" He said trying to make it better
"No. I don't think you can anymore" I said
"Don't do this" He wined
"It's for the best Lance if we just take a break" I said
"No. No it's not keith. We survived a whole year why can't we just move on from this. Keith please" His eyes started to water
" I can't just move on Lance. I love you and I will always love you but its just not the right time for us" I felt the tears coming
" Don't. Don't tell me you love me the break up with me. If you love me then stay with me." He said letting the tears fall
"Lance this isn't any easier for me but I don't want to be in a relationship where I don't feel wanted" I started crying too.
"You are wanted Keith. Think about everything we have been through. I'll do anything just please don't do this. " He cried
"Lance." I say trying to get him to understand
"You promised me! You promised we would stay together! You can't break a promise!" He says yelling out of pain.
"Lance you've said some mean things and made me feel like I'm worthless. I don't want to be with you if that's all your giving me. Everything considered" I said trying to explain myself
"But I love you" He says throwing himself into my arms. He cried into my shoulder trying to keep me from leaving.
"You promised" He keeps saying. I hug him wanting to talk it all back but I know it's for the best. I cry with him knowing what I'm losing. We stay there for a while trying to fix everything. Evenly I pulled away kissing him one last time with passion and pain. His kisses were wet from the tears but also warm. I have to do what's best for me. But I'll miss this. I'll miss him.
~LANCES POV~
He kissed me like it was the last time. I didn't want it to be. I know it's my fault I know I said some bad things. If I just shut my mouth maybe... Just maybe. But it's over now. We're over.
"Goodbye Lance" He said letting up from the kiss. His hands still on my cheeks. I moved my hands to cover his.
"I don't want to say it" I said letting the tears fall again. He didn't say anything back. He sniffed taking his hands away. I turn to leave trying to pull myself together.
"Wait" He says. I turn around hoping he will take it back. I see him holding out my jacket towards me. Why. Why Keith why.
"This is yours" He says. I take it wishing I didn't.
"Yours is still in our - my room" I say remembering there is no more us.
"I'll get it another time" He says. We stand there for a little just staring at one another. I find the power to turn around making it to the door. The tears came once I left the room. I didn't even make it to my room before completely breaking down. Once I did all I could do was curl up in bed and cry. I felt sick to my stomach. My heart hurt more than I thought it could. Then again I never thought I would lose someone I loved to much.
