* KEITHS POV*
I only cried once. After that I felt dry. Like the feelings had been sucked out of me like oxygen to the flame. Now all I feel is anger and hatred. He left me and didn't even care a single ounce for what he was doing to me. When I was crying I felt like I was in the same place I've always been. Crying over lance and it made me furious. I got so mad I tore the room apart. Tears stained on my cheeks my hands and arms bleeding from the broken glass and metal. My breath raced as I sat panting, bleeding and panicking on the floor of our room. My room. When I felt like it was over the anger took over again and I lashed out. This time I took it out on my own past. All the photos and safekeepings from Lances and I's relationship. Burning everything we owned or made a memory with. That included the sheets and clothes we used to use. I clearly didn't think my actions through as the fire alarm soon rang out. I look up only to glare at the flashing alarm before turning back to the fire. Consumed by it. A few minutes later is when the rest of the team ran in Shiro pulled me away from the flames that I didn't notice had gotten so close.
"Keith what are you doing" shiro says sounding concerned. Pidge instantly put out the fire and hunk helped her out. I was lost in my own mind. Shiro shook me awake.
"Keith, Keith what are you doing" he yelled in my face getting me back into reality.
"What does it look like" I says getting up throwing the rest of the pictures in the ashes. They all looked a moment. A sudden weight filled the room.
"Oh keith" pidge said quietly with remorse. I look up at their faces. They were sad, sad for me.
"Whatever you need we are here for you buddy" hunk says.
"I don't need any of you" I say kicking the pile of ashes. Black smoke falls slowly I feel everything drifting away but I'm not sad.
"He was the only on here for me and now look. He left me for no reason. Wanna ask him go ahead. Go find him wherever he is and ask. Maybe he'll talk to you" I say not talking to anyone in particular.
"I'm sure he's just getting over some things" shiro says trying to diffuse the situation.
"He's getting over me shiro. He's over me and he's never coming back" I yell. I could feel my old self breaking the walls down. I storm out of the room tired of their pity and sympathy. I got right for the training deck. I grab my blade and fight. I fight day and night for as long as I can remember. I was training so hard I took of my shirt because of how sweaty it was. My heart was racing and there was no food or water in my body. I hadn't eat since he left. On the 3rd day my body fell apart. I could breath and my arm started to tingle. I knew I could have a heart attack if I kept going. So I kept fighting. Nothing could hurt as bad as lance leaving. I wasn't scared of anything.
~time jump~
I woke up in a healing pod. When I got out everyone was waiting for me.
"What happened" I says rubbing my head.
"I found you passed out in the training deck. Your heat almost stopped Keith" pidge said.
"Why didn't you stop fighting Keith. You could have gotten yourself killed" shiro says
"So what if I died huh. Not like I'd be in anymore pain right. Maybe that's what's best for me have you though about that" I say already yelling.
"Keith death is not the answer to your pain" shiro says again trying to calm me down.
"You said...you said the answer was in my heart. That keeping lance was in here and that it would all be fine. Now look at me... my answer is trying to kill me. Sounds like twisted irony doesn't it" I say shoving him
"Keith you need to calm down. Your are overreacting" hunk said from the back of the crowd.
"Do you want to see overreacting" I says running to hunk grabbing his shoe in my fist.
"You haven't seen anything yet" I say between my teeth looking him dead in the eye.
"Keith enough" shiro says raising his voice. He grabs my arm pulling me away as I fight out of his grip. With no luck I get stuck in his grasp. He pulls me to face him still keeping me from moving.
"I have bad enough of your self destructive ways. If you keep this up I will have no other choice but to remove you from the team. That would leave us two men down and what would happen to you. Let's not find out. I need you to spend however long you need to get better and come back when you're ready. "Keith we need you to be here. We need you on your game but right now you are more of a liability than an asset" he says. It didn't change my mind at all. I burst out of his arms running as fast as I could. I ran no where and everywhere all at once. I felt like I was on fire. That I was leaving burn marks on the walls behind me. Once my heart pounded out of my chest I stopped. I felt like my body was tingling. I could feel my muscles moving and my skin crawl. I look down confused as my body started turning purple.
"No" I say running to the nearest mirror I could find. I look in the mirror and watch as my face is consumed with purple. Marks appeared on my skin marks I've never seen before. Once I though it was over I was taking in the new look. Stressing it about how to turn back when I felt it. I felt a tail. A freaking tail form from my lower back. I shake my head in shame as my tail waves around behind me. I grab my face with both hands trying to shake off the galura. I never asked for this I thought it wouldn't even happen. I try to calm down. Thinking that it's only triggered by my anger. I work on breathing and slowly the purple slips away. I return back to normal the tail retracting back. I freak out again. What do I do if I'm ever angry again. I hardly know how it works let alone how to control it. I make a plan. A plan stay away from everyone forever. That makes sense. I'll stay in my room or even run a way that right. What am I thinking I can't run away from my problems. I'm not lance after all.
