⚠️ warning ⚠️ this contains sensitive topics like suicide please if you are in any way unsure about reading this please skip this chapter. If you are feeling suicidal or know someone who is please call a hotline or talk to someone you trust.
~KEITHS POV~
I woke up to the sound of lance screaming. I shot up in bed surprised. He was sitting up already like he had just woke up too. He was panting and fidgeting around like he didn't know what was happening. Tears were stained on his cheeks like he had been crying all night.
"Lance!" I say wide awake. He started mumbling but all I could make out was no.
"Lance!" I say louder grabbing him trying to snap him out of it. He finally wakes up completely, meeting eyes with me. His whole body was shaking and he started crying again.
"Oh lance" I say pulling him into a hug. He squeezed onto me like the time I came back from the blade.
"It was just a dream" I say in his ear. I don't know what he was dreaming about but he was really upset. I've never seen him act like that. He cried out loud slowly getting my shoulder wet with tears. I move away taking his face in my hands.
"Look at me, it was just a dream okay?" I say face to face.
"But it was so real" he cried falling back into a hug. He choked up the tears. His hands moved around my back like he way trying to control himself.
"Lance, focus on me okay...look at me and just focus on my face for a second" I say pulling away. He sniffs a few times breathing heavy through his chest. His eyes meet mine.
"It's okay" I say
"It's okay" I say again. He takes a deep breath letting me wipe his tears away.
"Yo-you we're gone" he said slowly
"What do you mean?"I ask
"I mean you were really gone. You never came back to me you never came back at all" he said about to cry again
"Okay okay, calm down I'm here okay I came back it was just a dream" I say
~LANCES POV~
It's like ever thing he said went in one ear and it the next. I see him and I can feel him but the dream was so real I almost didn't know what was true.
"I-I shot myself" I say still in shock. His face went cold for a second realizing how crazy I must sound
"But your here now and your still alive. None of that was real just try to focus on what is" he says holding my hands. I focus on his touch and the sound of his voice and it slowly brings me back. I'm still messed up but now I know it was just a dream. We spend a while in silence just giving me time to call down. Keith is so good to me.
"Are you feeling any better" he asks now sitting next to me letting me lay my head in his lap.
"Yah" I say being honest
"Thank you" I say reaching to grab his hand. He takes it gladly.
"Do you want to stay in today or..." he says.
"No I'm okay I should be able to work today" I say knowing a dream isn't a valid excuse.
"I don't really want to ask but do you remember the whole dream?" He asks with one hand running through my hair.
" yah, it was a mess but I remember most of it" I say
"You died while working with the blade and I was so happy to see you. I cried a lot and even yelled at the rest of the team for acting like they loved you like I did. It was to much for me so I went into your room and...and I shot myself" I say letting him know why it hurt so much.
"Oh" he said not knowing what else to say.
"That's why I woke up screaming" I say trying to break the awkward silence.
"Please tell me you wouldn't do that in real life" he said looking down at me.
"Do what?" I ask knowing what he meant
"If I die wether it's with the blade or with voltron please tell me you won't kill yourself." He says squeezing my hand in his.
"In my dream it was almost like an alternate reality. I know that if anything had happened to you I wouldn't be surprised if that's where it take me." I say understand what he's worried about.
"Oh lance" he says laying his head back on the wall lookin up.
"What I'm I supposed to say...you are everything to me and without you I don't know if I would even be able to keep going." I say.
~KEITHS POV~
I try to hide my face not wanting him so see my tears.
"But I'm with you now let's not talk about the what if's I'm sorry I brought it up" I say pushing down the tears.
"I didn't mean to say it like that" he says
"I don't want to hear how I'm your whole world and I'm the reason you would kill your self it's to much for someone to handle" I say
"Sorry, the dream just got me thinking" he says
"I have something to tell you" I say knowing it's to late to turn back.
"What's wrong?" he says instantly concerned for me.
"A few nights ago when I had the wet dream...it was more than that" I say.
"Why does it matter?" he says wondering why it's relevant.
"Because the dream wasn't about you and it's wrong for you to come clean and for me to keep it a secret" I say.
"What secret?" He asks sitting up
"The dream wasn't about you...it was about shiro" I say. The words burned the air.
"Why shiro?" He asks.
"I don't know and it wasn't like anything we have ever done" I say
"How?" He asks wanting to know the whole story.
"He said it was to punish me for my bad behavior. He choked me and gave me a hickey" I say
"Eww" He says
"What. You're not mad?" I ask
"Why would I be mad it was a stupid dream" he says. I let out the breath I was holding.
~LANCES POV~
"What about your dream then?" He asks. I'm glad he told me about the dream but it's not that big of a deal. It's not like he asked to have the dream.
" my dream was stupid too, it made me believe in things that didn't really happen. In reality it's not that big of a deal" I say feeling way better about it. He starts laughing.
"What's so funny?" I ask
"We were so worked up about a dream...that's just funny" he laughs.
"Remember when dreams were all rainbows and unicorns?" I add on.
"A while ago you were crying about killing yourself after I died and now you're laughing about it" he says
"And you made me believe you had a wet dream about me but really you were being dominated by shiro" I say right after him. There was an awkward silence for a while. We both realized how weird this. "We really shouldn't be laughing about this" I say getting up.
"It's inappropriate your right, people could really be going through these problems" he says taking my hand out of bed.
"Now I feel bad for laughing" I say. We were quiet for a while knowing how wrong it was to laugh.
"I love you, you know that right" I say pulling him to me.
"And I love you" He says. It makes me smile every time he says it.
"Ur blushing" He says.
"You still make me crazy" I say looking into his eyes. He kisses me softly letting the butterflies fill my stomach. We make out a bit. I can't remember the last time I kissed him or even said I love you. His hands holding my waist against his making the kisses even more desirable.
"I love you" He says again between kisses. We're crazy in love and don't regret it one bit.
