* KEITHS POV*
Lance has been gone two weeks. I haven't thought about him at all...okay I think about him everyday. But it's all anger and regret. I don't want him to come back I never do. But again I don't run how the world works because shiro just called him back to work. We have a mission we need to do and need lance because allura is bla bla bla it's just a excuse to bring him back. Allura is just fine working the loins but shiro is trying to fix something that's doesn't include him. He's trying to fix me. He's been upset ever since I started the fire. no one knows I went full galra and they never will. I've kept it under control for this long and no one needs to know. He's worried I'll do something I can't take back. And he has the audacity to bring lance back to fix that. I laugh out loud knowing how stupid he must be. I decide I don't have to be here for this. Or at least I can stand up and find a way to keep lance apart from us.
"Shiro I need to talk" I say walking into his room. I don't look anywhere but him and the ground
"What's wrong keith" he asks standing up.
"Lance can't come back. I can't let that happen" I say firm but with a calm tone.
"Well he's part of the team. He's had to come back" shiro says.
"Allura can fly the lions better than lance can. I know you are just making up excuses to get us back in the same room." I say
"And why would I do that." He says not denying it.
"Because you're afraid of me. Afraid of what I've become without lance. Trust me I am too. You think bringing him back will make me better. But it won't. I promise it won't" I says pleading
"But you aren't getting better like this. And how much worse can you even get if he comes back. Maybe he will help" he says sympathetic
" I promise Shiro if you tell him he doesn't have to come back I will get better. I will calm down and correct my anger. Please Shiro" I beg him. He stares at me for a long time.
"If I see even an ounce of anger from you I will call him again. Then trust me no amount begging can get you your way. You're gonna have to deal with your feelings soon or we're all gonna feel the explosion" he says firm. I nod in understanding. I almost feel like getting my way way pointless. I wanted lance back but couldn't accept it so I got rid of the chance. I broke that last chance I had at being normal. If there even is a normal.
* LANCES POV*
Like normal I woke up in Noah's bed. Yawning I rub his head messing up his already bed head. His arm wraps around me pulling me in. It started as a little one night stand. Then a booty call, a fling, something without a label and now. Now we're happy. Mind you I had my fair share of fun before I had him all to myself. A different boy or girl every night. Never staying over too late always back in action the next day. There was one girl named Zena that I meet two nights in a row. I definitely regret the second time. But all that's passed. Me and Noah are happy. I've technically moved in with him since I spend the night and most of the day with him. He goes to work in the morning and that's when I go out. Doing nothing and everything all at the same time just waiting for him to get home. I cook him meals when he gets home and he always makes dinner before bed. We leave together and fall asleep together. We have our routines and systems even if it's only been a week. We are adults and we act like it. We don't fight over stupid stuff or force one another into doing something they don't want to do. Even with it being new I can feel myself falling for him. Falling hard. I imagine a future with him and it's beautiful. We have big plans to buy a small house together where we can have dogs and a yard for my cow. I will get a normal job so we can have all the nice things we want. Even if all we want is lying next to us in bed.
"Good morning" he says in a raspy voice.
"Good morning" I say back. I get up throwing the covers back over Noah. He cuddles them to his face rolling on his side. I fix us a cup of coffee and do my morning routine in the bathroom. When I'm done Noah's siting shirtless at the table enjoying the coffee. I admire his body. The scars he has from his chin to this shoulder. The scars on his hips and back.
"What are all the scars from I don't think you have told me" I say running my finger along the pink skin on his neck.
"I picked a fight with bear" he says looking me dead In the eye.
"Rawr" he say biting the air I front of me. I chuckles
"No I got these when I was a kid. My family is a long line of fighters and my father never held back. Most of these are from a sword but this one ( he points at the misshaped scar on his neck) I got this one when I cane up here from earth. My ship caugh on fire and burned right through my suit. Lucky I'm still really" He says. I stare at him in admiration. He's so brave and strong. He makes me want to be better.
"What about you. How did you get up here what's the story behind you" he asks talking a sip of coffee.
"I came up here when me and my friends found the loins of voltron. Then came the princess and the castle. The wars and a lot more. But I was training at a garrison base back home on earth before all this". He started at me with a blank look. Braking out into laughter after a while.
"What" I say smiling too.
"Out of all the boys I know or have slept with I just so happen to end up with a paladin of voltron. Defenders of the universe" he says mocking me in a light mood.
"That's not who I am anymore. They don't need me as much as they did and I'm happier here. With you" I say. We are not a sappy relationship. We are real and natural but when we do say cute thing like that It's what makes them that much more special.
"Just be happy knowing how many lives you saved. Even if they don't need you anymore you'll find someone else who will, like me. " He says kissing my forehead before getting ready for work.
*KEITHS POV*
It sucks. It sucks being not angry and alone. I don't know what to do or how to feel. I have to be good for shiro and the fact I go Galra when I'm angry. So do I act happy, do I act at all. Do I interact with the team or do I stay here alone. All I can do when I'm like this is think. Think about lance and lance and more of lance. It's annoying how much I think about him. It's like a song that's stuck in my head. That I can only get out once I've finished the song. I need to feel closure with lance. I need to say good bye and leave everything I had which him. Maybe, Him coming back wasn't such a bad idea. Or I could always go find him. Who knows what he's doing. He's probably crying about me. Wanting to look like the bigger person so he won't come back. Maybe my only answer is to go find him. I pack my things for a trip to him. I will leave tomorrow and come back that night. I'll find him. Tell him what I have to say and come home. Leaving all the pain anger and attachment behind.
*LANCES POV*
Talking about my time with voltron I started thinking about the memories I made. I haven't even thought about them once since I left. And I felt so released and free without them. I miss shiro pidge and hunk. I even miss allura and coran. They probably wouldn't recognize me now. Now I'm more human than ever. I have a boyfriends and a little apartment with him. We're adults about everything and have real plans for ourself. I'm new and better without Voltron. I know I'm missing something but I pushed it away for a reason and I don't try hard enough to find what it is. It's the only time I've felt like I was missing something and I didn't like the feeling. So I though about something else. I join Noah in the bedroom when he's in his work clothes.
"Looking good" I say fixing his tie.
"Thanks" He says rolling up the sleeves to his button up top.
"I'm thinking of spaghetti for lunch does that sound good" I say sitting on the bed looking at him through the mirror in front of us.
"That sounds amazing" he says. I smile. He's finishes getting ready and turns to me. He lad to look down considering he's tall and I'm sitting down. I pull him into me by his legs. My arms around his lower butt and my head resting on his stomach. He holds me for a second rubbing my head and back. leaning out to kiss me His lips soft on mine. He kisses me again before leaving saying goodbye before he shut the door. I flop back into the bed overwhelmed with love and compassion. He really stole my heart already. I smile to myself thinking about him kissing me. Thinking about him coming home to me and how lucky I got with him. I wish we could have know each other our whole lives.
