To the moon and back //varchie//

I'm not okay

Veronica's pov

Here's the story me and Archie's last week as a couple at least for now. If you think I'm going to start with how we broke up your wrong. The week began so good.

It had felt like we were trying to defy the black hood. If what we're doing is such a sin how come it can feel so good. We became the opposite of death. The feeling of death makes people crave for life make us I don't know more friskier?

But whatever it was it felt so right, but in the ended so badly. It all started out as a simple make out at school. Then if furthered into Archie house, then his garage. Damn even the Pembrook if we could defy the black hood then why not defy the wrath of my father Hiram Lodge.

We lay on the rug in front of the warm fire. Archie lay on his stomach and I laid my head on his back. " Are you sure your parents are not going to be home anytime soon. I mean what if they catch us like this." He asks me. I continue to rub his back. "The menu tasting the restaurant they went to has 13 course we have hours yet to come."

He laughs at me. "What you've always wanted to make it in front of a roaring fire?" I say in a calming tone . And he laughs at me a little more. "I don't know it's just I love you Ronnie." And that's when it set in. I've said I love to him but this is actually the first time he has said it to me. Which means we are an actual serious couple, and that frighten me a little.

I kind of just stop everything, thinking just everything. He quickly sits up and I put the blanket around me. "How bout we watch some Netflix." He says panicking. "Or we can see what's on HBO." I suggest. "Or I can just go." But I didn't want him to go. "Or we can just get dressed." I say wanting him to stay.

He still just gets up. "Archie wait." I say making him stop. "This was like always amazing." I put my hand under his chin and kiss him. He than gets up and continues getting dressed. Then he leaves.

I've said I love you before why can't I say it now. Is all of this stuff with the black hood making me afraid that I can get super attached and than loose him.

But whatever ever it is, is it going to make me put a strain on our relationship?

When me and Archie meet at school the next day it's a little awkward, but not to bad. We walk to the lounge to meet jughead and Betty they said they need to meet us to tell us something.

We go to the lounge and just jughead and Betty wants us to check out this old case for them. The truth is I'm only going to do it so I can distract myself from talking to Archie about what happened.

I go home that day just thinking what is wrong with why can't I say it. I've said I love before, but I'm Just chocking. Just why.

I walk into the house and see my parents holding a letter. "What's that?" I ask. "A letter from the black hood." My Dad says calmly. "Don't let it ruin your day or anything." This is scary because we are actual sinners. Like Example A: I literally had underage sex in my apartment yesterday.

While I'm thinking about that my dad rambles in about something I don't really care about. "Mom can you follow me in my room I need to talk to you about something." I say loosing my train of thought. "Sure Mija." She says than follows me.

My mom walks in and sits down and I shut the door than sit next to her. "Archie may or may not have said the I love you to me." I tell her. "Well what did you think you heard?" She asks. "I heard I love you Ronnie."

"What happened after that?" She asks me. "I froze then he left." I say with tears starting to form. "But the thing I've said I love you before, but why can't I say it now?" I ask with now a warm tear running down the side of my face.