SINFUL | Kim Taehyung

24

{ I let you destroyed me }

Seokjin dropped you off infront of your dorm building. He pulled down the window and smiled at you. "It was such a nice date, Minhee. Thank you"

Your lips curled upward, "No. I should be thanking you. You paid for all the food I devoured and thank you for giving me one of the best evenings"

He chuckled, "I am glad". "You should get going now, Seokjin. It's getting dark", you said and he nodded. "Yeah, I should. I'll call you at night"

"Sure", with that you waved at him as his car drove passed you and you watched his car fading away from your vision. You let out a sigh, before walking to the elevator.

You pressed the button and waited for the lift to arrive ground floor. You kept looking at your feet, spacing out while thinking about random things. You heard a ding sound and the door opened.

As you looked up, your eyes came in contact with very familiar brown orbs and your heart almost jumped out of your ribcage. 'Taehyung?'

Both of you were staring at each other for god-knows-how-long. He finally broke the silence, "Are you coming in or not?"

You mentally slapped yourself and entered inside the elevator. You selected your floor and stood beside him in silence. His scent caught your attention. Alcohol.

You wanted to question him why he is here but then, you should not because whatever he does isn't your business anymore. You are not his girlfriend.

The ride felt for eternity and the air inside the lift was suffocating you. The tension between the both of you was so thick. The moment you heard the ding sound and the door opened, you let out a deep breath. You didn't realize that you were holding your breath in around his presence.

However, your breath hitched when he exited the elevator along with you. 'Is he following me?'

While you were taking out your key card infront of your room's door, he walked pass you, causing you to sigh in relief. 'What was I thinking? There's no way that he is following me'

You entered inside your apartment room and it was pitch-black. You concluded that Yerin hasn't arrived yet. You switched on the lights and went up straight to your bedroom, putting down your bag on your study desk and dived backward onto your bed, spreading out your arms and legs.

You placed a hand on your forehead, letting yourself drown in thoughts.

'Taehyung, why is he here?'

You caught yourself thinking about him. Again

You shook your head and slapped your cheeks as you mumbled, "You're supposed to think about Seokjin only, Kang Minhee"

The doorbell rang causing you to stand up and ran towards the door. You were sure that it would be Yerin. You planned to give her a long lecture for not informing you that she would come back home later than you.

You opened the door and said, "Ya, Ji Yerin—"

Your sentence was cut off when you were pushed inside back into the apartment and he shut the door before he walked towards you, pinning you against the wall.

Your eyes widened when you finally saw that person's face. "Taehyung what—"

He slammed his lips on yours and you hit his chest continuously, trying to stop him but he didn't even flinch.

And he was kissing you non-stop. Once, twice, until you had a taste and realized that you still haven't had enough of it. He was everywhere up your back and over your arms and suddenly, he was kissing you harder, deeper, with a fervent urgent need you had never known before.

He now bent down, his lips against your cheek, brushing it lightly and still that light touch sent shivers through your nerves, shivers that made your whole body tremble. "If you want me to stop, tell me now," he whispered.

'I should stop him'

When you still said nothing, he brushed his mouth against the hollow of your temple. "Or now." He traced the line of your cheekbone. "Or now." His lips were against yours again.

"Or—"

"Why the fuck did you turn me on?", you cursed before you pulled him down to you, and the rest of his words were lost against your mouth. He kissed you gently, carefully, but it wasn't gentleness you wanted, not now, not after all this time, and you knotted your fists in his shirt, pulling him harder against yours. He groaned softly, low in his throat, and then his arms circled you for support, gathering you against him, and wrapped your legs around his waist, arms around his neck, tangled together, still kissing.

"I've missed you", you smirked against his lips the moment you heard those words.

"Chang Erin", your eyes fluttered open and so did he. He was drunk but he was sobered enough to realize what he just blurted out infront of you.

Your heart was shattered into pieces.

Again, he was seeing his dead girlfriend, your sister in you.

You immediately pushed him away and your whole body was trembling. You felt like a thousand daggers were being thrust into your chest and twisted. Your breath came in short, painful gasps that left you dizzy and nauseated. Last of all, tears of disappointment streamed down your cheeks while staring at him.

"Minhee I—"

"JUST FUCKING SHUT UP", you screamed at the top of your lungs.

"Please stop hurting me!!! Everyone. Please", your voice cracked as you hit your chest with your fist hardly, hoping that the pain inside would go numb.

He went silent at your words. He had never seen you this devastated before. You had to take in so much for today.

Your whole life was a lie and now, the one and only guy you endear so much sees your dead sister in you. He doesn't love you.

"I fucking love you more than myself and I think that's why I let you destroy me! I gave you everything I could give you and that never seemed to be enough! I will never be able to fill up the gap my dead sister left in your heart!", you choked on your river of tears.

"Your-your dead sister?", his eyes widened as those certain words left your lips.

Tunnel vision conquered your sight as you lost the colour from your face. It was as if your heart had suddenly stopped beating and all the blood had run down into your feet. You swayed for just a moment and Taehyung caught you in his arms.

"Minhee-si! Kang Minhee!", he shouted as he patted your cheeks.

Ears popped, all noise blurred and sounds became distant and soon faded. Your vision became extremely disorientating.

"Ya, Kang Minhee!"

A whirlpool of darkness clouded your eyes.

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[ a/n: omfg i squeezed out all the descriptive sentences in my brain ._. ]