April's POV
I sat on the couch, watching everyone talk amongst themselves as they ignore me like always. There's alcohol in everyone's veins but mine, I won't drink.
Not with this assholes.
"April, I didn't see you all night." Ian says, the only normal one of my brother's friends. He sits down next to me and I lay my head on his shoulder.
"These are some pretty awesome muffins." Shawn says, everyone turns to him and I laugh, he looks at me and winks and I swear nothing in the world hurts more than seeing Shawn all the way over there, not next to me.
Cassidy and Makayla enter Brian's busy living room. Everyone was practically here, it was a nice party I'll admit.
Brian does know how to decorate, I'll give him that. Cassidy and Makayla are Brian's neighbors, they both went to school with us. Makayla is in beauty school and Cassidy is in the local community college like the rest of us.
I always wondered what my life would be like if Jack wasn't my step brother; I'd be happy, possibly even skinnier, wouldn't be eating away all my feelings, I might have had a nice boyfriend, someone kinda like Shawn.
I think I need somebody like that. Sweet and gentle, almost like the winter breeze; always there to surprise me, but just like the sight of snow, beautiful and familiar.
"I'm so tired, I could be at home watching Stranger Things." I sigh and Ian laughs. "Haven't you've watched that already?" He asks, I look over to Brian giving me a nasty look, Shawn tells him to stop and I just stare blankly at the two of them.
"I've already watched the two seasons about 4 times now," I admit and he laughs, revealing he's never seen an episode.
"Stranger Things will change your life, Ian." Shawn comes and sits on the other side of me.
I give him a confused look and he half smiles. "April, darling, 2017 is ending, haven't you had enough threesomes?" Mark slurs, chugging down his drink and I tell him to fuck off as Shawn's jaw clenches.
"Thanks for ruining the mood, Mark." Kate scoffs and looks at me concerned. "It's okay, you don't have to stick up for me. They're all just pissed off, there's no one relevant here to share how slutty I am in bed with!" I speak and she smirks, knowing that no one will say anything, they just stare because they're too ashamed to admit that they lied for the last 4 years and destroyed every last good piece of me.
My brother looks at me and shrugs, I shoot him a nasty look and look at Shawn staring down at me.
"April, can we talk, alone." Shawn softly says in my ear and I shrug my shoulders and pout. I look into those brown pools held in his eyes, he bites his lip and I cave in. "Cmon, please?" He stands up and takes my hand, I turn to Ian, "I'm sorry, I'll be right back." I tell him and he nods his head, sipping his beer.
Makayla and Cassidy take our spots on the couch, they're all watching the New Years Eve show, singing along to all the artists, waiting for Shawn's prerecorded performance to air.
"There goes April and Shawn!" Someone slurs and I roll my eyes, flipping everyone off. I turned to the clock on the wall, 10:42. "This night is never ending." I joke as I walked into Brian's kitchen, Shawn following behind me.
Brian and I used to date for 6 months, I wonder if Shawn knew that... He honestly adored spending time with me, telling me I was different and all he wanted. I finally thought the madness would be over, it was Junior Year of school, I went back with my head up high, holding Brian's hand only to find out he'd drop it when he became friends with Jack.
I was hurt like you couldn't believe.. I burned my bed sheets, ripped up every picture we took together and promised myself that I'll never fall for any of those guys again.
But I think I'm breaking that promise...
"You wanted to talk," I throw my hands up, motioning for Shawn to begin, he rolls his eyes and my face softens, confused. "I have to be honest with you right now, I know you're not what they say, I get that, April, I do." He starts and already my eyes begin to feel heavy.
Shawn Mendes, the only guy who I actually feel so comfortable and happy around, is about to tear me apart like the others. "Then what? What is it that I do that makes me so dislikable?" I look up at his beautiful, angelic face and take a breath.
August 8, 2017
"You ready?" I smile up at my beautiful brown eyed friend, he giggles and I get up from his bed. "It's your birthday, time to party!" I spin in my dress and Shawn just stares at me, kinda like he's in a trance.
"Come here," he says, I begin to get nervous, my heart is beating like crazy and it's all because of Shawn. I walk back over to him, slowly but gracefully, my heels barely making contact with the hard wood floor in his bedroom. Our eyes locked, sparks were flying everywhere and this was all I wanted, but "Not today." I sigh.
"We should go down, everyone's there," I say pivoting on my feet to the door, "Shawn, let's go." I stand still, waiting for Shawn, he put his hand on my back and I flinched, wanting to cave into his touch. "If not now, when?" He whispers in my ear and goosebumps invade my body, running up and down my arms and legs, making me weak.
Only Shawn has the power to do this to me.
"I'm not a whore, Shawn, I'm not that girl they tell you I am." I painfully say, not letting him talk. "They used me, called me names and hurt me physically and mentally." I sigh, looking down and wiping my eyes, angrily taking my beanie off. "I'm so much more than what they say, I thought you'd understand that, out of everyone in this world."
"You're not what they say- you're worse!" Shawn shouts and I close my eyes. I feel him walk towards me, he grabs arms and I open my eyes. "I don't give a shit about what they say, you're driving me fucking crazy and all I need is you."
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