January 11, 2018
I woke up with a pillow literally covering half of my face. Shawn was next to me, gently tracing patterns into my pale thigh which lay across his waist.
He grinned softly down at me when he saw my confused expression. "How did you sleep?" I asked him looking up at his tiny messy curls. "Right next to you," a goofy smile spreads across his beautiful face. "But I'm usually a really light sleeper, did you move around?"
I sat up and realized I hadn't had anything but my tank top and some shorts. Shawn's shorts. "Yeah, you knocked out right next to me, I never saw you so comfortable before. Your head was dug into my shoulder."
"Hmm, okay." I say sitting up to stretch my legs. I leaned over to Shawn, he closed his eyes thinking he was getting a kiss. I chuckled and pulled his hood over his head.
"You're such a tease."
"Come on," I stand up and grab his arm. "Time for breakfast." I stuck my tongue out before taking Shawn's hand in mine and started dragging him across his apartment.
The entire morning we enjoyed ourselves, I could never get bored of Shawn. He's so adorable, funny and very cuddly.
I need a mans like Shawn. I need him to be my mans. Wait, is that how people are saying it these days?
I suggested we go back to my place, I should check up on Kate. I knew she was super upset over Matthew. Shawn's flawless face looked back at me in the mirror and I grinned. "What?" He laughs hugging me from behind.
Goosebumps take over my body and I was just standing there speechless. "April," Shawn says and I jump, he laughs while I shit on my heels to face him. "You wanted this, right?" Shawn was holding a curling wand I asked him if Aaliyah had; he looks at it weirdly and I giggle.
"Yes! Your sister keeps many things here, that's so funny." I say plugging the iron into the outlet next to the mirror. "Did you plan all of this out?" He asks me and I think back to last night.
Oh, the night we shared. I never felt like this with anyone before. And I could tell he definitely feels the same.
The way we kissed, the way we joke around and enjoy each other's company is so natural and so so amazing.
"Yeah I packed a little bag because I figured Kate and Matt-"
"You knew you'd be coming over," Shawn talks over me and pushes me against the counter. His hot breath fanned my neck and I looked at the ground.
"No.. I was mad at you, I simply was just waiting for my apology hot chocolate.." I bite my lips and stand up on my tippy toes. He looked down at me so fondly, like I was all he wanted.
And it drives me absolutely mad. "Just kiss me already," I whisper in his ear and with that, Shawn lifts me onto the counter and starts passionately kissing me.
My legs were getting weak and I was literally sitting down; my whole body just wants to cave in right now to Shawn's touch. The taste of his lips and the way he smelt. Oh my god, he was consuming me.
Let me just tell you his scent was intoxicating, he smelt heavenly; like fresh scented pine and honey. God, why am I thinking about his aroma as I am kissing him?
"Shawn," I say breaking the kiss. I cup his cheeks and he rests his head in my collarbone. "I gotta do my hair," I giggle gently pushing him off of me and he playfully rolls his eyes, carefully placing me back onto the ground.
"Play me your favorite song." I tell him and he does. His angelic voice fills my innocent ears as I twisted my hair in the curling wand and watched Shawn dance around through the mirror.
The way he's looking at me as the song finished made me blush like crazy. "What happened with you and Brian?" Shawn asks me and to be honest, I wasn't ready for this question.
"You can do 99 things for someone and all they'll remember is the one thing you didn't do." I spoke up and continued curling the last couple pieces of my hair.
Shawn stood there trying to understand what I meant. He wasn't here when it all happened. He didn't witness any of the drama. He'll never understand.
But I'm fine with that, I wanted a new start. It's 11 days into the new year. I shouldn't be thinking of the past. I promised myself that.
Shawn's POV
"Shit, hold these!" April whispers piling all of her belongings into my arms. She bends over and I chuckle, she scoffs, lifting up the welcome mat to find the key. "Aha! I never thought I'd need this," she laughs and unlocks the door.
"Hmm where's Kate?" I throw her bag onto the nearest couch when I don't see April's roommate. April shrugs and she runs into Kate's room. "I'm over here,"
"What happened?" I walk over to her in the hallway and she places her finger over my mouth. I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion and she chuckles. "Shhh," Kate walks away and sits on the opposite couch, now pouting as April walks in.
"Kate? Is everything alright? What's the matter?" April runs up to her, she was concerned and Kate just confused me.
I've seen April through all the motions, never like this though.
"He broke up with me," Kate sniffles and my eyes widen up at her. "I'm going to kill him!" April's eyes darken, she shouts and throws her hands up in there air. Is Kate actually being serious? Matt would never. April was pacing back and forth as Kate just kept talking and talking but I didn't believe it one bit.
Matt has loved Kate from the very start, I always thought he was crazy.
I remember when I found out they got together, I thought to myself at that exact moment, my best friend is absolutely insane.
I felt so sorry for him, thinking it wasn't going to last and he'd end up broken. He thought he found his other half, as if soulmates actually existed.
And now I just think, I found April. I don't want her to destroy me. She can't. And I know she won't. So I take advantage of the time I have with her, she's so unique and I'm falling deeply. Everyone thinks otherwise but they don't know her the way I know her. I don't want her to ever end this, I know what she's been through.
But what if it's me? What if one day I can't do this anymore and leave her, like what Kate is telling us what went down with her and Matthew. Will I leave her? I just want to fall in love with her some day if she allows me. Lately I've been craving her more and last night was unforgettable.
"Shawn, did you hear me?" April waves her hands in my face, bringing me back to reality. "What?" I say as she walks back to hug Kate. "We are going on a mission. A mission to find out what the fuck is up with Matthew. I swear when I see him I'm going to flip. Kate loves him-"
"April, wait." Kate reaches out for her, wiping her fake tears. "Yeah?" Her voice cracks as she looks down at her best friend.
"We didn't break up," I hear a familiar voice and look up towards April's room. "Are you serious?" I mumble meeting eyes with my buddy. Kate and Matt start hysterically laughing and I quickly turn to April.
"Are you fucking kidding me?" She tries to say keeping an angry face but then fails, running over to Matt and tackling him onto the couch.
I laugh watching April jump on up and down and all over the place. She's different, she's special and I intend to make her mine.
SORRY I WENT MIA HAHA IT TOOK ME FOREVER TO WRITE THIS
