April's POV
March 22, 2018
I quickly pulled up to the curb of Matt's dorm as Kate and him jumped in the backseat. "Hey," my best friend greets me and I smile at her through the mirror. "April, hurry the fuck up." Matthew yells as I stop short. "There was a kitten! No one is behind me, we'll get there on time." I snap back and turn the radio on. "Go enjoy the scenery, look at the beautiful, but annoying snow hang off the wannabe Rockefeller Christmas trees."
Kate laughs as of course Shawn's new song starts playing. "Lost In Japan or In My Blood?" Matt speaks up moments later as I approach a stop light. "Which one is not written about me again?" I joke and we all just sit there listening to Shawn's song play.
I remember when he played these two songs for us back on New Years Eve. They're truly unbelievable. I'm so excited for the rest of his album and the everything ahead of him.
His voice is so raw and he sounds so vulnerable and totally let's go of his guard in In My Blood to talk about something as serious as anxiety.
Every time I'm listening to In My Blood, I swear it's like the first time. It has that effect on me and I relate to it in a sense where I've been so lost within my own pools of sadness and desperation and every time I've wanted to just breakdown I don't, I accept my feelings so I can potentially move on and grow stronger each time.
Mental health is serious and Shawn is really out here blowing all of us away. I'm very proud of him.
But I also fear there is something he's not telling me...
"I- uh- I think I'm gonna talk to Shawn within these couple days to just ask how he is doing, mentally, I'm worried. He's out here confident and glowing, why is this song so-"
"Sing it!" Kate screams as her inner fangirl is unleashed, she's singing along and taking Snapchats and I make it louder as I pull up to Makayla and Cassidy's place.
Does everyone live so close or do I just drive really fast through this campus and town where the speed limit is slower than New York City's?
Makayla pushes Cassidy as she was trying to get in the front seat. Makayla rushes and plugs her phone in as the song ends on the radio.
We're all sitting there as Cassidy pushes like 15 balloons next to Kate and Matthew. "What? We need to celebrate, Shawn will be here soon."
"How am I gonna see out the back window- you know what- it's cool just keep them down." I turn around and look at Matthew who's staring at me. "Okay, I'll go now."
"How's Ian and Sebastian?" Kate asks our girlfriends, we haven't hung out recently because of midterms and the bipolar weather.
I need a drink.
We started small conversation like usual, jumping to family, friends, food and fake people, we call that 'four fucks sake', as we drive for another half hour out of our college town to our home town.
My mind goes back and forth from Pickering and New York.
I've been thinking about my future lately and I'm fine wherever as long as Shawn is in my life. I love him, he's my home. We've been dating for about 3 months now and our love is pure and deep, we know we need to stay together and just have fun.
"Makayla, where's April's phone? Get it from her and text Shawn!" Cassidy says reaching in the front seats to turn Makayla's playlist off. "What? No! Guys, we are gonna see him in a few, it's supposed to be a surprise."
"Yeah, it'll be a surprise alright," I turn to Makayla who was raising her eyebrows and smirking. "What are you gonna say? He responds to me quickly, even though it seems like he's MIA 24/7."
*texts*
April: do you got plans tonight?
I was hoping I could get lost in your paradise😽
Shawnyyyy: the only think I'm thinking bout is you and I
Cuz I can't get you off my mind, I'll be there in 20, baby ❣️ shh don't share those lyrics with anyone, the song comes out tomorrow
"Holy shit, April." Makayla shows me the phone and everyone laughs. "He's gonna be pissed when he sees it's not just you and him in his bedroom," Matt raises an eyebrow and I breathe out as I park in Shawn's parents' driveway.
"Surprise!" Everyone screams as I was mid squat. What a perfect time to.., oh god lemme get out there.
"April, hey." Shawn giggles as I walk up to him, "you did all this?" He asks, I hug him and he kisses my hair. "Yeah, cuz I'm proud of you and stuff." I flush and he smiles brightly down at me.
"It's Thursday, you know." He smirks as we sit down next to each other on the couch. "I know," I smile and lean my head on his shoulder.
All of our friends were busy eating and chatting that I didn't even realize Lillian and Jack showed up. It looked like everyone was having a good time though.
"Take selfies with me," I kiss Shawn's cheek as he grabs me by my waist and puts me on top of his lap. "Shawn, I'm ticklish." I laugh and giggle and he's just being all adorable and I'm just getting lost in those damn eyes. We take pictures and joke with Jack and Lillian, surprisingly. Brian brought Ivy and eventually Ian and Sebi showed up with more food.
My skin tingled where he touched me and my heart beat erratically in my chest so hard that I thought it might fly out. "Cmon, let's go watch the TGIT line up, the new show is on tonight too," Shawn gets up and smiles, he takes my hand and we rush upstairs.
"I missed you," I say setting the popcorn down on the nightstand next to his childhood bed. "I missed you too. I saw Stella a couple days ago, I took her as my date at one of the radio station brunches; I think she had fun." Shawn jumps on the bed and I smile.
"I bet everyone else was jealous." I lay down next to him and look up into his eyes. "Why? Are you." Shawn teases me right as we were about to kiss. "I haven't kissed those lips in two weeks, you ruined it." I reach for a couple pieces of popcorn and shove it in his mouth as he mocks me and tries to kiss me.
"April!" He chuckles and throws himself on top of me. We're laughing and kissing and I throw popcorn at his chest when I hear the little theme song for TGIT.
"Grey's time!" I push my boy off me and jump on his lap after we get under the blankets as Meredith Grey takes over the screen.
"You're my McDreamy,"
