Closed Doors (ongoing)

Chapter 50 (Ring in the New Year)

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Mich's POV

What to do?

I rolled on the other side of my bed and I looked at my clock. 6pm. Konti nalang, tapos na lahat to.

Yes, today is December 31 and maya-maya, January 1 na. At oo, mamaya wala na kami ni Cole.

Napabalikwas ulit ako sa kama at nagtaklob ako ng kumot. Ugh, Mich! Bakit mo ba naman kasi sinabing inaantok lang!?

After niyang magconfess, after niyang sabihing mahal niya ako. I swear to the galaxy, sobrang naging abnormal ng heart rate ko. I was so overwhelmed na antanga ng naisagot ko. Bobo naman kasi eh, nagconfess na nga si Cole, sinabihan ko pa ng inaantok!? Wow, nice going Mich.

Then, Cole texted me on the 26th para sabihin na nasa Tagaytay siya para makasama ang mom niya. He told me that he will be back at 11pm tonight.

I am still spacing out. Hindi ko na siya nakita after Christmas at yung text na yun ang last conversation namin. Ugh, I am really stressing out.

I stood up to get something to drink. Habang naglalakad ako papunta sa kitchen, nakita ko yung guitar na nasa ilalim nung mini christmas tree sa living room. I smiled lightly pagkakita ko nun, I was supposed to give that to him last Christmas. Pero, nangyari yung inaantok thingy kaya hindi ko na naibigay. Hay nako, binalikan ko pa man din yun sa mall.

I headed to the kitchen and I get myself a glass of water. After kong kumuha ng water, nagdiretso ulit ako sa kwarto. I need to contemplate.

Nahiga ulit ako sa kama.

I closed my eyes and Cole's face suddenly flashed in my mind. Hay, what do I really feel for him? Yes, maybe more than friends ang tingin ko sakanya at kinikilig at medyo kinakabahan ako kapag kasama ko siya. At oo, super ayaw kong matapos tong pagpapanggap namin. If only I could control time.

Kung ayaw ko naman palang tapusin tong namamagitan samin, bakit hindi nalang namin totohanin!?

Ah. Mich, you're out of your mind. Tch, ganito pala talaga kapag inlove hay nako Cole! Ikaw kasi, masyado kang sweet eh.

Oo na nga. I have fallen for Cole. And as stupid as I sound, I just rejected the man that I love. Aish ang gulo ko na talaga.

I reached for my phone and I dialled Chez's number. Maybe this dino can give me some advice.

("ATEEENG! AYMISHU SO MATS!!!")

I laughed a bit after his greeting.

"I miss you too."

("Oh eh the why ang iyong pag call?")

I took a deep breath.

"I'm inlove."

("HUWAT!? ATI, HINDI TAYO PWEDE! WAPAK. PAREHO TAYONG CHROMOSOME XX. BAWAL TAYO ATENG!!")

If only I could slap Chez through the phone, nagawa ko na. Ugh, medyo tae si dino.

"You really think na sayo ako inlove? Hahahaha NO."

("Mabuti naman sis! Oh eh the who ikaw inlove?")

"Cole. Aaaaay Chez! Why am I feeling this way? I feel so awkward ughh."

("Ayoko na sayo! Si papa Cole na nga lang ang pag-asa kong magkalovelife ngayon, inagaw mo pa! Aba ateng, wala nang natira para sa beauty koh!! Si papa Harp kay lukaret na. Si Justin babes kay Tori na, tapos si bebe Axe mapupunta rin kay Jade!! Tapos ikaw, inagaw mo pa sakin si papa Cole!? Ayhetyu.")