Finally my favorite part of the day came
Yes my favorite is sleeping
Only there I can rest for a little while
Even for a few hours I am numb
I lay down in my bed closing my eyes
Damn I can't sleep and I hate it
I hate reminiscing everything
I hate reminiscing what I've been through
Suddenly a drop of water from my eyes fall
I felt something pinching my heart
I remember how hard I am struggling
I remember how hard to struggle
I am down in this peaceful night again
I am hurt in this lonely night again
I am drown in tears again
Asking myself "did I really deserve to feel this pain
I woke up again hoping I didn't
Scared of what kind of battle what life brings again
Doubting if I can survive this this time
I have no choice but to take it again and again
I am wearing mask
That nobody could see it
Only me
Cause tther is nobody I see but only me
Whenever they see me they see a happy me
A cheerful me
A unending laughter they'll see
That they can't see what I am really feeling inside
They'll see me smile no matter how hard I am feeling right now
They'll see me laughing even though I'm close to tears
They'll see me encouraging others that I can't apply to myself
What can I do I need to be strong for nobody else but for myself
