Fall Into Places (Into Trilogy #1)

Kabanata 10

Days had passed like a blur. Clyde was true to his words. Since the day that he asked me out and I declined him, he never stopped pursuing me. I didn't mind at all, he was always with me. I can say na mag-iisang buwan na since nangyari iyon. Ianthe and I are okay now. One thing that I noticed too, she was always hanging out with Luke and that bothered me. Hindi kasi kami masyadong nag-uusap since parang siya naman ang palaging umiiwas sa'kin. I don't know what's gottin' into her. Para siyang may itinatago.

"Ianthe," I called her ng matiyempuhan ko siya sa bahay niya.

I noticed too that this past few days, she was always out and I don't know where the hell is she going.

She was sitting on their hammock while reading some kind of book that is not my likes. We're very different when it comes to books. Magkaibang magkaiba ang taste naming dalawa.

"O, Moira. Naparito ka?" She closed her book and then stand and went to me.

I raised an eyebrow at her. The way she acts is like she's expecting someone but not me.

"Bakit? Masama bang dumalaw dito? Or were you expecting someone else?" Prangka kong tanong sakaniya na ikinaiwas niya ng tingin sa'kin.

"W-what are you saying, Moira?" She was stuttering and that confirmed my suspicion.

I glared at her. "Iniiwasan mo ako and I don't like that. You are hiding something from me. From us." I remarked that made her gulp.

"M-moira-"

"Ianthe?"

Napatigil kami sa pag-uusap ng may malalim na boses ang tumawag sa pangalan niya. Nang lumingon ako ay nakita ko si Luke na nakakunot ang noo habang nakatingin sa aming dalawa.

"Anong ginagawa niya dito, Ianthe?" Tanong ni Luke na parang isang malaking kasalanan na nandito ako.

How dare he!

"Ah, ano kasi, Luke. Binisita niya lang ako. You know my bestfriend, palagi siya ritong dumadaan samin." She explained to Luke na parang isa niya itong kasintahan.

Wait, what the fuck.

Tiningnan ko siya ng matalim. "Bestfriend pala ha. How dare you call me your bestfriend when you're hiding something from us." Mariin kong sabi.

"Hey! Hindi naman lahat sa oras ay sasabihin ni Ianthe sayo lahat lahat ng nangyayari sa buhay niya. You're just her bestfriend not her mother." Ani ni Luke na nagpakunot sa noo ko.

"Luke!" Saway ni Ianthe rito but she's too late to do that.

"Kayo na ba?" Mariin kong tanong.

Natahimik naman si Ianthe at  hindi makatingin sa'kin ng deretso. Nagtagis naman ang bagang ko dahil sa galaw pa lang niya'y kompirmado na. Great! Nagpa-uto uto nanaman siya sa lalaking ito!

I chuckled sarcasticly. "Ano pa nga ba ang mapapala kong sagot sa'yo since I'm only your bestfriend."

"Moira... I'm sorry..."

Too late, Ianthe, too late.

I looked at him with my cold gaze. "From now on, don't treat me as your bestfriend anymore." I said with finality.

Nanlaki naman ang mga mata niya at akmang lalapit sa'kin pero pinigilan siya ni Luke at umatras naman ako mula sa kanila. Galit ko naman tiningnan ang walang silbing lalakeng ito.

"Huwag na huwag ka na ulit lumapit sa'kin kapag pinaiyak ka nanaman ng lalaking ito. I'm not a friend for convenience, Ianthe. I am a human and I have feelings too. I'm sick and tired of this shits that your always playing. Bahala ka na diyan since hindi ka naman palagi nakikinig sa mga sinasabi ko sa'yo." Pagkasabi ko noon ay tumalikod na ako at aakmang lalabas na sana sa gate nila ng marrin akong sinigawan ni Ianthe.

"Tama ka nga na hindi ako nakikinig sa mga sinasabi mo dahil lahat ng mga iyon ay hindi totoo! Luke is a change man now, Moira. Hindi na niya ako paglalaruan kagaya ng dati."

"Yeah right, talk to the hand." Ani ko ng hindi lumilingon

"Ugh!" She shouted out of frustration. "You know what? Bitter ka lang kasi hindi na bumalik sayo iyang first love mo!"

Nanlilisik naman ang mga mata kong nilingon siya dahil sa galit. "Shut your mouth, Ianthe."

"Tama ako diba?! Until now! Umaasa ka pa ring babalik siya but he will never return, Moira! Napako na lahat ng mga ipinangako niya sayo! Gumising ka na!"

Nanginginig na ang boses ko. "Shut up..."

"Pinaasa ka lang niya at ikaw rin itong tatanga-tanga na asang asa! Even with Clyde, siya pa rin ang iniisip mo! You're selfish Moira! Sa ating dalawa ikaw ang may pinakadaming hindi sinasabi sa amin kaya huwag mong ipunta lahat sa'kin ang sisi!"

"I said shut the hell up!" Hindi ko na napigilan at nasampal ko na siya.

She was stunned dahil sa ginawa ko. She never expected na sasampalin ko siya.

"Yes! You are right! Until now I am waiting for his return but you don't have the rights na sabihin sa akin lahat ng iyan! You don't know what I've been through! Your feelings for your Luke and my feelings for him are more deeper than what you felt for that shit!" Duro ko kay Luke. "He was my first love! Hindi mo alam kung ano kasakit ang naranasan ko! You never knew! And you never will! Lahat ng niluha mo sa lalaking iyan ay hindi pa sapat para ikumpara sa mga iniluha ko!" Hindi ko na napigilan ang mga luha kong kusang tumulo dahil sa sobrang tindi ng aking nadaramang sakit at galit.

"You will never feel the love that I felt for him. Kahit bata pa ako alam ko na ang mga nadarama ko. I was trained to control my feelings, Ianthe. I grew up mastering the art of manipulating my own feelings. He was the only one na nakapagpalabas ng mga totoo kong nadarama. He was always there whenever I need him. He was more deserving to call my bestfriend than you! Dahil sa mga ginawa niya para sa'kin!" I sobbed. "So don't ever say that again to me. You knew nothing. Tama lang siguro ito. I can never have a more than one bestfriend. Aira was the only one who I can trust now. You're all bunch of plain stupid. Magsama kayo nang lalaking iyan!"

I stormed out of her house leaving them speechless. I was crying hard while making my way home. I never cried this too much except for my birthday and noong umalis siya.

All the memories that I wanted to forget all came back. All of them came hunting me again. Ianthe will never know what she did to me. They will never know. They just triggered the worst side of me that I don't want them to see.

Napaluhod na ako ng tuluyan sa dinadaanan ko at humawak sa may larte ng dibdib ko. It's aching painfully and I want it to stop. I want all of it to stop. I want his memories of me and him together gone. I want you out of my system, just like how you left me all alone, Klyne.

STONE MIKAELSON