I Know I Shouldn't (Sequel To I Need You So Much) [Oliver Sykes Fan Fic]

Leaving Everything And Everyone

AN: Sorry this took so long for me to write. Finals are coming up so I've been studying a lot and haven't had time to post. Hopefully it was worth the wait though! Also, I think I'm going to start wrapping up this story. I have one more idea that will take me multiple chapters to carry out and after that, I think I'm going to end it.

Song: Miles Away by Memphis May Fire feating Kellin Quiin

Melody

I woke up on Saturday morning to the sound of knocking at my door. I groaned and pulled the blankets over my head to shield my eyes from the light that was streaming into my room from the windows. "Melody, get up!" my mum yelled through the door. Thankfully, she then stopped knocking but her order made me remember why she was being so pushy so early in the morning. My dad was leaving for tour in about an hour. 

With that thought, I slowly started to climb out of my nice warm bed and walk over to my closet. I pulled out one of my Bring Me The Horizon t-shirts and a pair of skinny jeans. I quickly got changed before going to brush my teeth and put on makeup. To be honest, I wasn't ready for my dad to leave again. I had just gotten used to him being home again and now he was taking off. That was my least favorite part about him being in a band. I barely ever got to see him. I had always been the closest to him out of Harmony, Linkin, and me, so it hurt me the most when he was gone. It had gotten a bit better now that we were older, but I still missed him when he wasn't here.

After I was ready, I made my way downstairs. Everyone was already sitting around our table, which wasn't surprising since I was always the last one awake. I immediately spotted the last plate of pancakes, which was sitting near the stove and seemed to be calling me name. I grabbed the plate and a glass before taking my seat sandwiched between Dad and Linkin. Everyone was completely silent. It seemed everyone was avoiding the topic we were all thinking about. No one at the large round table wanted Dad to leave, but there was nothing we could do about. It was like this every time Dad left. We'd all eat without talking because no one wanted to say the inevitable; no one wanted to admit he was leaving. Even after all these years, it was the same.

Suddenly. there was a honk from outside that startled me. "They must be here," Dad announced before standing up from the table. All of the band was heading to the airport together.

None of us responded. We just nodded and stood up. We all followed him to the front door. His bags were already on the floor near the door, ready to go. The amount of things he had packed reminded me he would be gone for two months and it made me want to cry. No matter how many times I did this, no matter how many times I said goodbye, it never got easier. Every time I wanted to tell him he couldn't go because we needed him here with us. Every time I could feel tears pricking at my eyes. 

"You guys be good for your mum while I'm gone," Dad ordered as he picked up his duffle bag. He said this every time he left. It was always the same speech. Before any of us could respond, he scooped Harmony up in a hug. She buried her face into the crook of his neck before he kissed the top of her head. When Harmony finally let him go, he wrapped his tattooed arms around Linkin. Dad was literally the only person Linkin let hug him for some reason. Finally, I was wrapped into Dad's embrace. That was when the tears that had welled up in my eyes started threatening to fall. I hated feeling like this.

When he let me go, he hugged Mum and gave her a kiss. I loved that even after all these years they were still so in love. It gave me hope. I wanted to find someone who loved me as much as Dad seemed to love Mum, but maybe I had already found that person. The only things was, did I love Tyler? I liked him a lot, sure, but did I love him? Did he love me? All this was so confusing and it was even worse because I couldn't ask Dad like I usually did when I needed advice.