The Girl Behind The Lens | S.M. (Discontinued)

Part 19- Grey

"You say it's not supposed to be, tell
me not to waste my time"

-Shawn Mendes, "Like This"
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Shawn's POV

"I'm sorry Shawn..." she said and took off, leaving me and my broken heart alone in the woods.

As she ran down the forest, my whole world turned grey. I couldn't believe what was happening. She turned around for one split second and her eyes met mine, red and puffy of the tears that kept falling of her brown eyes.

"Luna..." I said but came out as a whimper. She turned her back at me and continued to run.

Then, my eyes could no longer see her, as the moon went up in the sky and the light of the sun banished, only the candles illuminating me.

I felt my heart turn like a rock, heavy on my chest. My arms and legs started to shake as I covered my mouth with my hands. Tears immediately started flowing, making it hard to stop. The only sound that I could hear was the icy wind flow through the trees and the muffling of my cries. My heart ached of the painful heartbreak.

How could this happen? Did all this time that we passed together meant nothing to her?

I am truly a fool. She warned me ever since I met her, that she never felt anything for me. That she would never let anyone to her heart. That she somehow didn't deserve me.

But I wanted to be the one to contradict her words and see that I was the one she could trust and rely on, that I truly love her for who she is.

That I didn't rely on her outer beauty, even though she was the prettiest girl I have met, but the beauty inside. That she was tough and confident but also had her downs, when her world crashed down. That I was her way to forget her cruel life and actually have a fun time. I was there for her. Nobody should pass through so much problem.

Then, I couldn't hold it anymore.

My body couldn't be controlled and I fell on my knees. My cries became more violent, never in my life feeling greater pain.

Now, the only person I love truly is gone. I feel empty, as if there nothing else I can do. As if there is no one else in the phase of the Earth like her, which is sadly true. She is unique and I was lucky enough to meet her.

I grabbed the rock to my left and threw it roughly to the ground.

She like someone else....some one that isn't me. But how?

I was the only person that made her eyes sparkle as they looked into mine. I was the only one that made her smile grow and made her beautiful laugh come out as music to my ears. I was the one that was there when she broke down for a moment, when she never wanted no one to see her in that state. I was the one that knew her secret, not completely, but enough to let her know she is not alone.

I was the only person she showed her camera art to, since it's a piece of her father and she keeps it close to her heart.

Who else could have caught Luna's eyes and heart, that did any better than that? Who could have treated her better than I did?

I just hope the guy knows he is only lucky man that managed to meet such an amazing women as her. The only thing is that I wish that it was me.