honest [e.d]

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Madison's POV:
I was heading straight home after school. I've had enough of Alyssa talking and questioning me all day. Plus my dad is finally home from the hospital today so he's cooking me and Tyler our favourite meal... his famous BBQ chicken.

I reach my dark coloured house and get out of my white car. I grab my backpack and sling it across my shoulder with my phone in my right hand.

I decided to check it one last time before seeing my dad. I expected to see that Ethan messaged me back. But like I always do I got my hopes up and the only text was off Layla asking if I've spoke to him.

'I'll just call her later' I say to myself before walking to my front door.

I'm soon greeted by my dad engulfing me in a massive hug. 'I missed you over the past few days dad' I say pulling away. 'I've missed you both' he replies grabbing Tyler to join the hug aswell.

'When's food ready, I'm starving!!!' Tyler says over exaggerating. 'Now actually' my dad says pointing to our small family table which already has the food led out on it.

After we all finished he asked me about school, friends and what not. Since I've already told him what happened with Lucas at the party there wasn't much to say except Tyler telling us about his small 'party' he had.

I finished my glass of orange juice and excused myself from the white table. 'Hey dad I might go to the twins' house in an hour, is that okay?' I ask he nods and I go to turn away until he speaks.

'Has something happened?' I shook my head, that's the truth, we haven't argued. But I want to know what's happening with him.

I head to my room and notice in my mirror that I actually look like a zombie since I didn't wear much makeup today. I touch it up with concealer, powder, highlight and a bit of lipstick and decide to change into something more comfortable to walk there in.

I strip down and decide on wearing my black adidas leggings, my cropped white tee and since it's chilly I topped it with a black and green bomber jacket.

Before leaving I text Layla to update her. She's like a sister I never had, we tell each other everything.

Me: I'm going over there house but I haven't told him, since he's avoiding me he probably wouldn't let me in.

Lay💓💓: I'm over there now with Gray so I'll let you in, see you in 10

I'm so relieved that she's there. As I put my phone in my pockets of my puffy jacket in walks Tyler looking worried.

'Ty what's wrong?' He shrugs and sits on my pink and grey bed, as do I. 'Nothing's wrong with me, but I feel like you're hiding something from me' my heart drops. I hate that he feels like this, we tell each other everything from the smallest of things to the big ones. But this was different, I feel like he wouldn't understand. But I tell him anyway.

'That's why I'm going over there, he's been distant over the past couple days' I say looking down to my pink painted nails.

'Hey look here' he says. 'No matter what happens with him tonight, which I doubt anything bad will, you know I'm always here for you big sis' I nod and crack a smile and hug him. 'I love you Tyler, I'll talk to you later when I get home?' I ask he nods and exists my room the same time I do.

Once I reach the end of the staircase I see my dad in the lounge 'I'll be back around 8 I think dad, I won't be long' I say waving. 'Stay safe sweetie' is the last I heard before leaving my house.

|10 minutes later|
I have no idea how this is gonna play out but I'll regret it if I don't do anything. I go to knock the door until seconds before Grayson opens it. 'Mad's hey' he says welcoming me in. 'I'm guessing you're here to see Lay-'
'Ethan actually, I- I need to speak to him' he looked at me worried. 'Has something happened?' He asks as we're walking into the lounge where Layla is. 'That's the thing, I don't even know what's happened' I reply twirling my hair with my fingers.

Layla comes near us and pulls my fingers away from my long braids. 'Stop it' she giggles. 'I know that you do that when you're nervous or something' I shrug. 'Just go talk to him, you'll regret it other wise' Grayson says. I nod and tell them that I'll see them later since they were going out and won't be there.

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Songs to play:
Think about me-dvsn
Losin control-russ
Coloring - Kevin Garrett
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I reach his massive headroom door and I turn the handle. I walk in expecting him to say something. Except he doesn't even notice I was there. He had his music blasting out of his speakers and he was facing the other way on his bed.

'Ethan?'
'E'
'Ethan'

I didn't want to startle him so I grabbed his remote and turned the volume down slightly to make him notice. I hear him whisper confused to himself 'the fuck'. 'Ethan' I say one last time until he notices that I'm standing by his door, shutting t behind me.

'Mad's- Madison what are you doing here?' He asks. 'Urm, isn't it kind of obvious, you've been avoiding me for the past three days' then I walk over to his bed and sit close to him. 'Talk to me' I say.

'There's nothing to talk about' I roll my eyes. 'That's no excuse Ethan, especially for you. You could turn any conversation to some weird shit' he lets out a light it I don't think he meant to.

'Why are you ignoring me?' He just shrugs at my question. 'So you are avoiding me, you just won't tell me why' he looks up at me. Guilt in his eyes. 'I don't want to avoid you' I stare into his eyes confused. I grab his hand with mine. 'Then why do it?' He pulls away sharply. I whole heart sunk, why is he being like this?

Ethan's POV:
Why am I being like this? I ask myself. I just keep repeating to myself that it's to protect her from being hurt.

'I just am okay, I need to distance myself from you' I say she looks taken back a bit. 'Is that really what you want Ethan?' She asks standing up sad and angry. No, no, no is what I'm saying in my head. 'Yes, Madison' I blurt out. Even though it's a lie.

'Just tell me the reason atleast Ethan, can I have that?' She asks. I shake my head side to side. 'I don't like you like that' is what I say, god damn it. That's the biggest lie I've ever said. I see the heart break in her eyes when the words slip out of my mouth.

'That's a lie, why can't you just be honest for once Ethan' I didn't say anything. 'That not how you felt the other night when-' she pauses slightly.

Madison's POV:
I was about to finish my sentence until I realised that's what it was. 'When you felt sorry for me' I say with a tart slipping down my cheek. 'Did you really only say that because you felt sorry for me? Sorry for what Lucas done?' He doesn't even respond.

'Wow Ethan I knew you used to be so low, but I actually thought you changed' I admit and he looks up at me. He stands to come closer but I stop him. 'I have changed'
'And I'm guessing that's how she knows'
'Who?' He asks. 'Alyssa, Alyssa knows that you're ignoring me and it was so obvious how she knows but I was too oblivious to see it' another tear comes running from my eye. 'D-don't' I say while he tries to wipe my tears.

'I didn't tell her anyth-' I cut over him. 'Save it okay, save it for her. I can't believe I even caught feelings for you when I knew this whole time that this thing we had going on was just to make her jealous' I finally say getting everything off my chest.

'I do have good reasons for it' he says... 'I just can't tell you' I laugh trying to hide my tears.

'So is this what you really want? For us to just not speak and cut ties with you?' He nods and I can't help but feel the salty tears rush down my face.

I head towards his door while he's still looking at me. 'Next time just be more honest' I say before walking out of his dark room.

I was expecting him to run after me or say that he was wrong. But no. The Ethan that we all knew three months ago is here, he never went.