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Davina's POV
"I-I'm sorry, did we interrupt?" Jc asked, causing my face to heat up in embarrassment. I grabbed my jacket from the floor and slipped it on to cover myself. Kian put his shirt on as Rachel spoke up.
"What were you guys doing?" She asked with a hint of a smirk. I wanted to shrink down to the size of a crumb.
I covered my face with my hair, my nerves all over the place because of what just happened with Kian and what my sister said when she barged in. Even the sound of his name was enough for my mind to race and my heart to stop for a few seconds. "It doesn't matter. You saw him...what's he doing here?" I asked quietly.
Kian sat up on the couch and looked at the two of them with a dark look. "Where the fuck is he?" His voice was hardened which surprised me, he's only acted like this with Sienna. But then again he knows what that boy did and definitely isn't too fond of it.
"We were at the mall getting a tux for prom, and we saw Grayson with Sienna there in the store. They were looking at dresses." Rachel said.
"Why the fuck was he with Sienna?" Kian sneered.
Jc shrugged, "Maybe she contacted him."
I thought about Sienna and her tactics from the past. At first she was just using empty words, but she said something about only letting us have peace for a little while. Maybe this was the destruction she was going to bring. "She knew about him, she brought him here." I whispered mainly to Kian.
I met his eyes for a moment and saw that they changed from angry to concerned. Everything felt like too much, so I stood up from the couch and made my way upstairs without another word.
When I got to my room, I ran my hands down my face and tried to keep my emotions at bay. I didn't want to cry or explode or do anything. I just wanted everything to stop.
I was tired. That was really the only way I could put it. Nothing seemed to be slowing down and I felt powerless. I was happy for a few weeks, why did it have to be ruined? And how coinsidental was it that the day I finally feel comfortable enough to be with Kian like that, Grayson comes barging back into my life. This couldn't get worse.
Moments later, I heard a soft knock on the door. I stayed quiet and didn't move. "Davina, it's me." Kian's voice came from outside. "Can I come in? We don't have to talk about anything...I just wanna make sure you're okay."
I couldn't say no to him. I softened up and opened the door, immediately being met with his brown eyes and small smile. I didn't say anything because I wasn't sure if I wanted to. He must've sensed my uneasiness because instead of asking me if I was okay, he just stepped forward and wrapped his arms around me in an embrace that I needed more than anything.
"He's not gonna hurt you. I'm here, D, I won't let anything bad happen." He whispered while rubbing my back gently. I buried my head in his neck and willed myself not to cry. I was okay, nothing had happened. Not yet. He hasn't come near me and if he does, I have Kian.
We sat down on my bed and he kept his hand on my back, rubbing small circles to comfort me. I kept my eyes locked on the floor. He just sat there with me for a few moments before he seemed to figure out what he wanted to say.
"He's not important." Kian said, lightly brushing my hair behind my ear so he could see my face. "He doesn't matter. He's just some ignorant fuck who took advantage of an innocent, amazing girl. If he even tries to look your way, I'll make him regret ever hurting you."
After hearing Kian's words, I couldn't hold back it anymore. I silently cried and he was quick to wipe the tears away. I didn't just cry about Grayson, I cried about everything that I've been trying to keep hidden and not let rise to the surface. But I couldn't do it anymore. "Kian, I-I'm so exhausted. I thought moving here would be good but everything's just falling apart by the second. Sienna, my mother, Selena, and now Grayson again. I just want everything to stop." I sobbed, this being the second time he's seen me cry, but I didn't want to hold it in anymore. I didn't want to fake it till I make it. I just needed to cry for a minute.
Kian wrapped his arms around me and pulled me into his embrace, letting me sob into his shoulder. He pressed a long kiss onto my forehead while a held onto him like he was the only thing keeping me afloat. "I know, I'm so sorry, D. I wish I could make it stop for you. But all I can do is promise to be here and get through it by your side. I love you, and I'm never going to hurt you like everyone else."
I love him so much.
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It was 2am and Kian and I were laying down on my bed, just talking about everything. There were no other noises in the room other than our voices. He played with my fingers while we spoke and he occasionally kissed the back of my hand.
I had been telling him some of the things Grayson had done to me last year, and he was patiently listening. He would clench his jaw when he heard something that he hated and I would start running my hands though his hair to calm him down. I explained the whole Grayson-Davina relationship from beginning to end, trying my best not to relive everything. I needed Kian to know because he loves me and I know he can protect me if Grayson comes around.
I had just finished explaining my last humiliating days at my old school, when I was getting picked on and touched by the football team in the hallways, when Kian moved closer to me and wrapped his arms around my body. I looked up at him and his brown eyes were already set on me.
"You're beautiful." He said. I smiled.
My fingers ran up his arm, rested on his shoulder, then found their way to his lips. I rubbed my thumb against his bottom lip and he stared at me with doe eyes.
"You're the best person I know, and everyone who's ever hurt you can go fuck themselves. You're fucking perfect. You deserve the world and I wish I could give it to you."
I could hear my heart beating and I knew it was beating for him. "I don't need the world." I told him with a grin. "Just you."
This is crazy. We're eighteen and completely drowning in love. But this is just the way the universe works and Kian and I were meant to find each other now, not later.
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