ethereal (k.l.)

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*A/N: this chapter is gonna be a little different...and kind of emotional. Below this author's note is a trailer I made for this book, please watch this cuz I spent a lot of time on it 😅 at the end there's just a minute or two of just music and I didn't know how to cut that out soooo I hope you enjoy 😂❤️*

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It's been a week since my mom told me I couldn't see Kian anymore, and she had gotten her wish granted. Kian stopped coming to school. He wasn't in any classes and didn't show up at lunch. I kept asking Jc if he was okay, and he would tell me that he was fine, that he needed time to think. This only made me feel worse. I hurt him and I can never take that back. He'll never forgive me for this.

"Stop moping, Davina." Emilee said and poked my arm. "I haven't seen you smile in days." She tried her best to cheer me up, at least in the slightest. But nothing was working. Not even trips to Barnes and Noble.

I looked up at her and gave her the weakest, most fake smile I could muster. She sighed and reached over to pat my hand. "Sorry, Em, I'm just not in the mood to smile." I muttered.

Jc looked over at me, "He's okay, Davina. I promise." He told me for the hundredth time. I didn't bother responding because I knew that wasn't the truth. If Kian was okay, he would be here. He isn't one to avoid his problems so I know that he must be really hurt if he can't even be in the same building as me.

"Do you wanna go out of after school? We could go get pizza or something?" Rachel asked me.

I shook my head, "No, I just wanna hide in my room and wallow in guilt." I mumbled as I stuck my plastic fork into my salad. I hadn't eaten yet and lunch was almost over.

Rachel sighed and rested her head on my shoulder. "I hate seeing you like this." She said. "this isn't your fault, it's mom's. You should talk to her."

"Even if I did, it wouldn't change anything. Kian wouldn't take me back." I spoke up, almost choking on my words. The thought of them being true was too real.

"What makes you think that?" Selena asked me.

I looked down at my untouched food and played with the sleeves of my sweater. "I mean, why would he? I broke up with him because my mom said I had to. Who does that?" I scolded myself.

Jc nudged my shoulder lightly, getting my attention. "He understands why you did it, don't be so hard on yourself."

I let out a sigh. No matter what I said, they would find a reason to debunk my statement. I figured it was best if I stopped talking about it. But I knew I couldn't stop myself from thinking about him.

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Kian's POV *After School*

"Kian, Jc's here!" My mom yelled from downstairs. I didn't bother to respond. Soon enough, the curly headed stoner was running into my room.

"Hey, dude." He said and plopped down on the foot of my bed. I simply nodded as a greeting. "You still moping?" He asked. I nodded again.

You could say that I was overreacting, but I didn't care. I knew that if I went to school and saw her beautiful face, I would try to convince her to not care about what her mom says. But I know that I would fail and make everything worse. Her mom would hate me even more and she would take it out on Davina. So I was doing exactly what she wanted.