A Blue Rose

Left Out

Paige

It's just weird. All of a sudden, my two best friends, became best friends. I mean, I've always wanted them to get along, but now that they do, everything just feels different. It's like now they don't even need me, like they just forgot about me. Before, I was the only friend they knew, the only person to talk to. Now I'm nobody. When I wave to them in the hall, they don't even notice me and keep on chatting. When I offer them a snack, they're still stuck in their conversations. They talk all lunch, they talk all morning, they talk through class. They just can't stop talking! They're best friends now, and now that I think of it, I liked it better when they disliked each other. I know it sounds kind of selfish, but I don't have any friends other than them, and if they just forget about me like that, I won't have any friends at all. And I know that, because who else would ever want to be friends with the most average, boring, and non-special person in the entire universe! And Clair doesn't count! For the record, I wouldn't even want to be friends with myself, let alone be myself. I always wonder what it's like to be another person, a much cooler person. I am envious of Declana, she's got it all! Compared to her, I'm just the pebble in her shoe. Nobody's took the time to actually notice and get to know me as well as her and Keith. Well, not anymore I guess. I take a deep breath as I enter the school grounds in the morning. For some reason I woke up early, so nobody's there yet. I sit on a rock and think. I need to figure out a way to get things back to normal, without hurting anyone feelings. I've tried talking with them but they just keep on talking between each other. I've talking to them but they won't listen! This is tough one. I sit there alone, deep in thought, as the early spring wind dances with my hair. I'm a slow thinker, so before I could really come up with anything, Declana and Keith we already here too, chatting of course. "So, how are you?" I asked Declana. Declana turns to me in surprise. "Were you talking to me?" she asks back. I nod my head. "Oh. I'm doing great, thank you," replied Declana and continues her conversation. See what I mean. It's not fun being ignored by your best friends, if that's still what they are anyway. Slowly but surly, the true best friends wander off once again, leaving me in the dark, in the dust. I felt like a lone wolf, abandoned by it's pack. Like a balloon, that someone let go into the sky. Like a beating heart, beating no more. And so was the whole half of the day, I was the only person partnered up with a person they didn't like for a class project. The individual looking at the other kids in our class laughing and chatting with their friends. The girl sitting alone at the lunch tables. There are many ways to describe it, but there were two little words that stood out the most. I was being left out.