Breaking Zane Blac. //COMPLETED//[But Not Edited ]

Chapter 7

(Still editing)

Zane's POV...

Painting has always been a way of escape for me, a coping mechanism used to deal with the darkness that was my life

As i tried to paint away what i felt on the inside , using colors to block my heart from feeling the pain i felt every time i remembered the look in her eyes

i had never felt this way in my life because i had made my heart as cold as stone making me unable to feel or love until she came along melting my icy cold heart with one touch of her hand

i was the heart breaker, the player never allowing any one to break down my wall or even come close to it but she did it with just a look in her eyes

as much i tried to stay as my from her , trying to let my heart hate her but i just couldn't

God why was i so drawn to her,'''i taunt myself over and over again

Although I really didn't get much sleep last night as the event between Kate and I has been replaying on and on in my head,as those look I saw in her eyes were still killing me slowly

I shouldn't have said what I did to her".i scolded myself

but i was so scared of hurting her , so scared of breaking her innocence i didn't want to dim the light in her as everything i tend to touch turns to dust and fades away

Suddenly the door to my room flung open and Christian walked in with all smiles on his face

What got you so happy Chris?" I asked him given him a fist bump

Cali's is having a party on her dad's yacht and we are going," he said now spinning around in my chair

I don't think I'm up to go to any party," I told him while putting finishing touches on my work

No-no-no, everyone will be there and Cali said Emma is also bringing Kate to get her mind off something I think, "Christian kept rumbling

That is the more reason why I shouldn't be there ,Kate hates me and i think it's for the best that i keep my distance away from her

I ruined everything between us, so I think it's better I stay away from her

That's not acceptable," Christian groans pacing back and forth the room

you coming and fixing whatever it is you are having with Kate and that's finally, because i'm not going to let my two best friend fight for some unnecessary reason

Be there by 6 pm" he said giving me one of those his funny but serious looks

FINE! I said knowing I had no choice

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Coming here was definitely a bad idea to begin with ," I said down the last content of my fifth drink

Why did I listen to christian about this in the first place, "I groaned out in frustration

I don't think Kate would come here knowing fully well i might be here, I destroyed everything good between us and there is no coming back from that

i was about to give up and leave when christian yelled pulling me back by the arm

"She is here," Chris said turning me around to look at him

Looking in the same direction as him , i saw her walking in with a huge smile on her face

The sight of her made my heart beat much faster as her presence was doing unexplainable things within me. How could someone have so much effect over me,"I thought to myself

Would you just stand there staring at her or will you go and fix things with her?"Chris said urging me to go talk to her

Quite unsure about everything ,what if she doesn't want to talk ? what if the mere sight of me disgusts her and she doesn't want anything to do with me," i asked myself as so many unanswered questioned hover around in my head but i had to try

OK this can't be so hard right; I summoned up the courage as I worked over there with sweaty hands

Hi Princess you looking beautiful as always," I said smiling, But she just turned around totally ignoring me

This wouldn't be as easy I thought, "I said to myself as moved closer to her touching her but she flinched at my touch

Hi I know you are mad at me hell I'm mad at myself too, but you have to talk to me one day right,"' I told her turning her around to look at me as i moved closer to close the gap between us but she only flinched at my touch yet again

Don't touch me, just stay far away from me Zane, I know you are just bad news and there is nothing you would say or do right now that would fix how I feel,"she said hitting me really hard

Princess... you know that I'm really sorry about everything I said, i wouldn't have said what i said trust me i was just scared of losing you as a friend and I guess my fears became my reality,'' I continued trying my hardest to speak as all this feelings where all new to me

So please forgive me and let's put all this behind us,'' i murmured in a low tone

As I waited for her to say or do something, even hitting me again would be an option right now but she did not but just to stare at me without saying a word

Princess, this is the part where you smile and say you have forgiven me," I said sarcastically

Zane!" Kate called with venom in her words i could see her having some kind of internal battle within her as i felt a part of her wanting to reach out, wanting to forgive me,but in a swift second the look in her eyes changed

Do you think you would just get an easy pass on this one.....you really hurt me very deeply, so I just think it would be best you just stay far away from me!" she exclaimed walking to toward the opposite direction

But I just can't just stay away from you!" I thought to myself, even the mere thought of that made me sick to my bones

Damn no..... I just can't 

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