addison // jack avery

Part 24

-jack johnson's pov-

it's been six long months without our addison, our sister. it's getting on the verge of insanity for some, some have tried to be happy again, but one thing's for sure, nobody is the same.

3am and i'm still not asleep, i creep downstairs and i can feel the warmth of addison once again.

she's there, sitting on the bench eating cherios at 3am. she notices me and smiles. that smile makes me have hope.

a- hey jj

i blink and it's back to reality, she's not sitting on the bench, her smile was a hallucination.

i continue to the fridge and get out an apple juice and open it carefully. while the cap makes a pop noise i hear familiar voices down the stairs. three seconds later and we're all downstairs, they all look miserable.

we fall into the other room and just stare into plain sight. i don't know what happened after that, but i woke up in the same position.

it is now 9am and everyone is still where they were last night. i get up and hear noises in the kitchen. walking over the many still bodies i made my way to the other room, coming face to face with jack.

no surprise to be honest, he's here everyday if not nights. he gives me an apologetic look but i shake my head.

jj- it's fine, i understand

i passed him a bowl and got out the cereal from the cupboard. i poured us both a bowl and he looked up at me. this is when i noticed how tired he looked. i've been telling him for months that he needs to sleep and obviously he hasn't.

jj- jack....

j- i know, but it's impossible, i lay down and just as i'm about to fall asleep i see her

jj- i get it, just stay here for a few days?

j- i don't want to impose, i already spend so much time here

jj- no it'll be easier anyway, logan and jake should be ready anytime now

j- i hope so

i noticed that we barely had any food for the other's breakfast so i decided to head out. i told jack and got into the car before driving down to the nearest whole foods.

before pulling in i hear a familiar song on the radio.

- this is for addison paul, she is still missing, please if anyone sees her contact the paul brothers

i feel tears form in my eyes as i hear her name, and her songs play. they play white blood which reminds me of her love for jack and how her eyes used to widen when she saw him.

said you'd always be my white blood

i can't take it, but i can't turn it off. i keep listening to the voice i haven't heard in months, it's somewhat comforting, but not the real thing.

the song ends as i am getting out, i remember coming to whole foods with addi when she attemtped her diet. yeah no, addi loves food too much. she got so excited to see all the healthy food but got annoyed when none of it actually tasted good.

i snap out of my thoughts and continue walking through. i grab a basket and fill it with fruit and juice. shawn wants to try and make addi's fruit salad so i grabbed some more things.

when turning the corner to checkout i saw a familiar head of blonde hair. no, it can't be. i continue shopping until i face the girl again, this time i see her side view, she has the same freckle on her cheek that addi does.

no, this is my mind tricking me again, don't fall for it. i blink and she's still there, i shrug it off and make my way forward. i pay for the items and head out of the store. as i'm going out i hear a voice that sounds exactly like addi's.

it's the same girl, hair, freckles, voice. why would she be here? why wouldn't she have come to us? is it even her?

i quickly think of a plan and go along with it. i get up white blood on my phone and start to walk over to the familiar girl. she looks up from her phone and smiles at me as if i was a stranger.

jj- i'm sorry but do you know this song?

i press play and she listens through the earbud. she seems to like it, but she seems to like it as a listener, not the singer.

- this is such a good song, who wrote it?

i look down as i realise that it isn't addi, what are the odds?

jj- oh i'm sorry, it's my friend addison paul, you should check her out.

-woah my name's addison too! small world

i double glance at what she just said, what is she doing? is she messing with me?

jj- what did you just say?

- what?

jj- i thought you just said that you're name was addison?

a- it is, but i can't remember my last name...

she looks around confused. oh my god, what have they done to her?

a- you look familiar...

oh please addi recognise me, i am your best friend, brother, known you since diapers. please don't give up.

a- oh i know where you're from, you sing like that with skate?

jj- haha yeah...

a- well, it was nice meeting you

jj- uhm can i take you somewhere?

a- oh i'm sorry but my brothers told me to never go anywhere with strangers...

brothers? logan and jake? no, they've been with us this whole time....

jj- it's okay, we're just going to see my friend

a- oh okay then

she quickly dropped her bags off in a car and walked over to me. we started walking as it wasn't far but she kept looking around. like she wasn't aware of where we were. what is she doing? we walk down this walkway every year on her birthday, how does she not recognise it?

why is this happening?