The Darkness of The Sun

Chapter 7

Grant

11:46 a.m.

"Look, I need to see her." It was already the next day and I still was unable to catch a glimpse of Azaria.

"I'm sorry sir but I can't allow that."

Retrieving I turned to the front door and walked out, of course with a plan. I entered through the side door, and found room 403 and I saw her. Extending the door slowly, and quietly walking in. Profoundly asleep, she laid there peacefully. I observed the bandages over her wound, attentively I ran my fingers over the cuts.

Each cut seemed bottomless. Each one struck me, the next more throbbing than the one before. I had a strong ambition to make them disappear, nonetheless I knew it wasn't possible. I yearned to take away the sorrow, all the horrible thoughts and feelings she held. Put them elsewhere, where no one would find. I desired so many things that were psychically infeasible.

Then frailty Azaria opened her eyes, she looked exhausted. So delicate, as if a single touch could snap her in half. My smile grew vast, I wasn't sure if she wanted to see me however. Therefore I was completely dumbstruck on what to say, what to do. Thank God she at least smiled.

"Grant." I kissed her, she didn't reject.

"Hi, yes."

"I'm sad."

"I know Azaria, I know." I wanted to cry, so horribly bad. But I needed to stay strong, show her it's okay.

"If I didn't love you, I'd hate you so much." She started to laugh a bit, then began to weep.

"You know I don't deserve you. I fucked up, believe me. I'm willing to make it up to you, even if we're not dating. I'll make it up to you as a friend, in anyway possible."

"I don't know."

"Do you want to get back together?"

"Grant, I don't know."

"Okay, I'm sorry."

"You're right, you don't deserve me. You really fucking don't but... Know the next time you cheat we're done, it's everlasting. Know I didn't do this due to our break up, sure it was a big part. Understand how completely and fully alone I am, how rejected from the world I feel. You're all I have anymore, the only damn thing. It's pathetic, it really is to be so in love with a single single. Knowing the center of me is you, it's horrible. "

"Well I love you so much Azaria, please don't ever second guess that."

"If you loved me you wouldn't have cheated."

I was speechless she was right, she was always right.