Hope//C.G *Finished*

The Next World

I sat with my back against the locked door and sighed. The walkey sat next to me, and I pulled my notebook onto my lap.

'After Carl was finally released from the infirmary. He locked himself in our room not coming out for anything. Michonne just keeps telling me that its normal, and its going to be hard. I know how hard it is. I remember when I was first left at Hershel's and I fell busting my face at the chicken coop. I had a gash on my forehead that split my right eyebrow in half. Herhsel stitched me up and told me to be careful, but I had no right eyebrow, and seven stitches. I locked myself in my room and it took everyone to get me out. Maggie is actually the first one I let in, and she gave me a detailed speech about how even though family jokes around we don't mean it. We can never get to angry with our family, because blood is thicker than water. I know what it feels like to lock yourself away, but eventually if you dont let anyone in it eats at you and things happen. I just want him to let me in.'

I closed my notebook and put it in my bag before grabbing the walkey, "Carl.. I know you're going through something right now. But you don't have to go through it alone. I love you. I'd never look at you differently. Please let me in." After hearing no response I put the walkey next to me, as I leaned my head against the door frame.

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I must of dozed off because I woke up with a blanket over me, and my bag leaning against the wall. I turned seeing new clothes and a note on top, 'Got you clothes -Michonne'. I got up and slung my bag on my back and folded the blanket taking it into Judith's room. I smiled at her as she was standing in her crib looking at me. 

"Hey Jude" I said smiling and picked her up. I turned and took her downstairs where Carol was there making something. "Oh morning Chloe" She said and I smiled "Morning Carol" She took Judith from me and I sighed sitting in the chair as the dining room table. I casually leaned back to crack my back. "Carl still not coming out?" Carol asked and I sighed "Nope. I spent the last three nights sleeping against that door" Carol gave me a look and went to say something, but I scooted the chair out and stood up. "I'm gonna go shower and take a walk. I'm supposed to meet up with Enid at 2" I told her and she nodded watching me go up stairs. I snatched the new clothes Michonne gave me up and went into the bathroom.

After my shower I left my hair down to dry naturally. I changed into the new clothes and went downstairs leading me to go outside. Enid was waiting for me behind the house and smiled as I walked up "Finally." She said and I chuckled "Sorry." Enid put the pins in and we both climbed up and over the wall. I was silent between us, until Enid broke the silence. "So, Hows Carl taking everything?" I sighed. "I dont.. actually know. He's my boyfriend and he doesn't talk to me. Its like he's shunning me. I'm officially shunned from the Carl Grimes brain of cut off emotions."

 Enid laughed and I chuckled. "Im serious though. I spent the last three nights sleeping against my bedroom door, because he thinks the bandage will slip off in his sleep." I sighed deeply before saying "He's been by my side for years but.. I'm shunned." Enid nodded "That's why I've been taking you out here. Welcome to the humble abode theres no electric or running water, but there are walkers" We laughed as we kept going. "Don't even get me started on that tennis ball" I complained and she gave me a weird look. "Denise says its PT is all I keep hearing. It drives me insane" I told her and she chuckled.

"Daryl came for my list of stuff and usually ours is on the same page, but im glad he didn't question it when I only had like four things on it. He asked if I wanted to go with them, but I turned it down. A run is not what I need to be doing right now." I told her. Enid nodded and just listened to me rant and rave before saying "Maggie asked me where we've been disappearing to." I turned to her with a concerned look, but Enid dismissed it "It's fine. I threw her off it, but if she asks.." Enid trailed off and I nodded.