Hope//C.G *Finished*

Worth

I sat with my back against the trailer as I held the letter in my hand. I was trying to bring myself to read it. Rick brought it over to me about an hour ago. I couldn't bring myself to open it. My hands shook but I cleared my throat, but I looked at the ring on my finger. The light bounced off of the heart shaped diamond and I took a shaky breathe before I opened it.

'You were always there for me when I needed you...No matter how big or small the situation was. If I needed help you were there. I think I really learned from that. I went out to help someone and got bit. Maybe that was the universe telling me that I should leave the saving to you.'

I chuckled and had tears in my eyes already

'Right now you're downstairs making us sandwiches. You promised me that you'd never leave me, or make me feel alone in this process since nobody knows. Please don't beat yourself up baby. I know you. I know you're probably thinking I won't but honestly Chloe Chanel you will. I'm not there to wipe the tears away and tell you everything is going to be okay. I'm not there to hold you at night when you have a nightmare or panic attack. You're going to have to do that. Step up and be that badass girl I fell in love with. The badass girl who's the love of my life that I married, because we wanted to spend the rest of our lives together. We were supposed to have our own baby Judith and tell them the stories of our past, and then grow old and die together. I'm sorry.'

Tears were falling from my face freely now.

'I'm sorry I won't be there for you. I'm sorry I wont be able to see the new world with you. I'm just sorry. I honestly truely loved you, and I'm sorry I let you down'

I sobbed, as I whispered "I loved you too." I squeezed my eyes shut as they burned from the tears falling.

'You need to help stop this war. Please Chloe. You know Negan like the back of your hand like I know my dad. If anyone can change Negan's mind it's you. You can do it. Do what we've talked about for ages. Face your childhood fears, and stop the impossible. I Love You, Carl'

I sniffled and wiped my face. I nodded to myself and folded the letter. I got up and dusted the dirt off my pants.  I turned and went in the little trailer I shared with Enid. I grabbed my emergency bag and packed the three guns I had. I then left with the bag bouncing on my back. I walked in to the giant house and to where we kept everything. I stole some food, and a couple bottles of water, before I snuck in to the infirmary. Sadiik was in there. I went to the shelf and grabbed a couple bandages. "What are you doing?" He asked me but I cleared my throat. "You never saw me" I told him. "Please. I need to see Carl." I turned to him and he nodded going quiet.

I packed a couple bandages and sterile wraps I grabbed in my bag before leaving. I walked to the gate and they opened it for me. The gate closed behind me and I started me walk. I held on to my straps of my beat up book bag, as it was silent. I just kept walking and ignoring the walkers I could. I went arrived at the Alexandria gates and pushed the open. I turned and locked them behind me, as I grabbed my knife. I killed about four before I looked around the burnt down neighborhood. I arrived at the house we shared and sighed. It wasn't untouched, but it wasn't burnt down either. Just damaged. I looked to the left and bit my lip as I looked at Jesse, Ron, and Sam's old house that was two doors down. That one was burnt down.

I cleared my throat and walked in the house. The whole first floor was trashed, and the front window was broken. I carefully went up the stairs as if they could break any second. I opened the door to Carl and I's empty room. I turned to the corner where I watched him sit and write those letters. I turned to the beat up stereo Carl brought back when he told me he got bit. I pressed the play button and our song that we danced to played. I put my bag on the desk and opened the drawer. I pulled out the fake bottom and put the remaining guns I had in my bag. I then slammed the drawer closed before sighing, and looking on Carl's side. He usually only kept bandages in them, but he cleaned them out last minute. I opened the drawer and reached in pulling out a note card that had my name on it.