This Thing Called Love

-roman-

Dean and I were walking from the gorilla. Dean sweaty from his match. I nudged "Hey good job out there tonight." He slipped his shirt off and chuckled "It's what I do, brother." We laughed it up as we were about to walk past catering. "Um, let me grab a water bottle real quick."

He nodded as I walked ahead and grabbed a cold water off the table. When I walked back, Dean had a weird look on his face."What's wrong?" "I remember you telling me a few days ago that you and Nikki weren't a thing anymore." I looked at him. "We aren't." He pointed with his, making me look to my right. Nikki walking up to us. 

"I'll leave you guys alone." I took a deep breath as she looked at me. "I know-" "I told I didn't want to see you-" "I just want to talk." "We have nothing to talk about." I turned around and walked, I heard her follow me. "Roman, I know that you think I don't care about you or that I don't-" 

I turned around. "That you don't what? That you don't love me? You don't love me. If you did, you wouldn't be doing what you're doing right now." "Roman, I was hurt for a very long time after what happened with us. It hurt to see you, it even hurt to think about you." 

"And what? You don't think I was hurting?! I was hurting because I had to live with the guilt. It ate me alive. It hurt that you didn't even text me or even accept any of my phone calls. You weren't the only one that was hurt. You may not be hurt anymore but I still am."

She lowered her head "R-Roman, I'm sorry.. I didn't know how to deal with it.. I don't know what I was thinking.. I still don't know-" "Well figure it out." I turned around to walk away but she grabbed my arm. "Roman please.. I need to know that you won't walk out on me. That you, you won't leave me standing alone."

I looked down at her hand, grabbing my arm. "You walked out on me.. You left me standing alone. I had no one. Where were you when I needed you?" I felt her hand slip off my arm. She nodded and turned around, sniffling.

I wanted to call her back but I also felt like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. She only cares about what she went through but she has no idea what I went through.