It's Been A Long Time... [Desperate Measures Sequel]

Eighteen.

A/N: Hello there my lovelies. I don't often do this, but I thought that I would make an exception. I have been away for a while, sorting some stuff on in my head. But now I am back and I aim to stay. If you are enjoying this please vote and comment. I love to read what you have to say. If you don't feel confident enough to comment you can always send me a personal message. Thank you guys!!

The rest of the car journey was the worst thing ever, I hated the silence and even the radio couldn't drown out the silence in my head. Even at rest stops I didn't dare to speak in case I said the wrong thing. I had been close with Luke but I didn't want to back down, I didn't want him to know how I really felt. If I had been alone I would have probably broken down in tears at Luke's words, I had seriously come a long way since I left rehab, I didn't want to ruin it all. 

As soon as we arrived at the hotel I chucked the keys at AJ before storming out of the car and grabbing my bags and heading into the hotel. I checked in and headed to my room before I had a chance to see any one else, before I had a chance to be drawn into another argument. 

In my hotel room I dropped my bags to the floor before crawling into the large bed, kicking my shoes off and relaxing under the duvet. I turned my face into the pillow where I allowed myself to vent, to let out a few tears I had been holding back since Luke started his rant at me. 

The tears streamed, my pillow got very wet as I continued to let it all out. I had to use any of my coping mechanisms to get passed my troubles. I didn't want to relapse, I didn't want to return to who I was and used to be. If I allowed myself to be manipulated I would just find myself back in rehab, or dead. I didn't really know right now, what was worse. 

I must have laid there for an hour, it felt like an hour, I didn't even bother looking at the time. But when I finally rose from my pit I decided the best thing to do was to have a bath, pass the time and hopefully make myself feel better. Running the hot water in the bath I felt a little calmer. I put some bubble bath into the water before adding some cold water and stripping down. Climbing into the tub I laid down allowing my hair to flow freely as I did. I finally turned off the taps as the bubbles and water covered my body. The heat was immense but I didn't care, it was nice to wash away everything that lingered on my skin. I washed my face in the water, washing away all the tears and the scent that Dean had left behind. 

My legs and arms became tired the longer I laid in the bath, but like before I didn't care. I didn't even want to get out of the bath, but that was interrupted by someone knocking on my hotel room door. Rolling my eyes I hoped that they would go away but after ages they were still knocking. 

Stepping out of the bath I pulled the bath towel around my bubbly wet body before heading through the hotel room and to the door. I pulled open the door with out checking due to my anger. Standing the other side was AJ who looked uncomfortable as he looked me up and down, seeing me in my towel. 

"Sorry," I said as I moved and let him into my hotel room, closing the door behind him. 

He sat on the chair in the room and looked at my face, his eyes meeting mine. "I didn't mean to interrupt-"

"I'm out of the bath now," I reminded him as I held the towel in place. "What do you want?"

"Look," he looked sad as he spoke. "I just wanted to apologise on behalf of Luke, I don't know what he was thinking."

"He's just saying what everyone else is thinking" I told AJ as I looked at myself in the mirror. I was a bit red from the hot water. 

I looked back to AJ who smiled at me, "I am not thinking that." He explained as he looked away from me. "I just want you to be honest, I want you to be happy Tasha."